Still Silence.

And she still stood there in silence. In frustration. Frustrated with her own self.

She has ruined one friendship with an amazing guy.

And now, she’s waiting for time to heal him.

And, she is so sorry for the thing that happened.

Things tend to go out of hand and we weren’t there to control it. But, we’re more driven by it.

If what he needs is time, then she’s willing to wait. Doesn’t matter how many seconds,minutes,hours,days,weeks,months or years. Because she has caused him pain. And time will be the punishment for her.

 

Somewhere.

She looked at him in a distance. She could tell he wasn’t paying any attention to the guy in front. His left hand was playing his hair. His right hand gripped the pencil. But his paper remain empty. But he was staring at the paper. Staring it hard. But she knows his gaze is empty.

Somewhere. His mind is at somewhere. And she prayed she could go to wherever his mind is at.

Her mind started to work. What does he thinking about? Is it about a girl?

A girl.

The girl.

The girl that she couldn’t be.

And with that, with a big lump on her chest. She decided to move forward.

“Pass My Shotgun” – Alia.

I hate this time of month where everything seems so wrong.

I hate this time of month where I feel like yelling.

I hate this time of month where I have the urge to punch someone.

I hate this time of month where one person mess with me, I’d go bitch-zilla to him.

I hate this time of month where I’m supposed to be happy but I’m not.

I hate this time of month where everything doesn’t matter to me.

I hate this time of month where I just hate seeing someone but I have to.

I hate this time of month where I have to play nice.

I hate this time of month where I don’t do any sports.

I just hate this time of month.

Turqoise.

“The difference between family and friends is you can’t choose your family, but you can choose your friends”.

This quote is from random celebrity that I read in Reader’s Digest.

As I recall back all my friends, there is one thing that we all have in common : The sense of humor.

A friend that I can really say that has the same humor as me is, Asiemah. She’s my sexy. I love her soo much that it hurts when I have to leave Brunei. I remember crying in the airport when I was leaving to KTJ. She wasn’t there. I cried for that. Though there were other friends of mine, but I was so so sad that she couldn’t make it. She and I could talk for hours and won’t bore each other. I still remember how we first had our talk. I didn’t come to school for the first 2 weeks cause I followed daddy back to Johor. Basically, I don’t know anyone. It was during recess I think, or when the teacher wasn’t in the class that I went to her table and talked about TRL. She said, she watched TRL. I was like, MY OTHER SISTER!! Woohoo!! And we have soo many in common that really started to bond us. Though me and her rarely chat online, but I really do miss her.

While I was in KTJ, I met this awesome girl. We weren’t close from the start. But that certain incident changed it. Slowly we learn each other’s personalities and likes/dislikes. That kind of stuff. We’ve started to hang out more. We’ve realized that though we are completely opposite but we’re so close that it creeps us. It’s amazing how we do keep in touch though we both said that we won’t since we will be in different colleges and different circles of friends. And that’s my Biawak lover, Aiza. :)

While I was in primary school, the girl who totally rocked my primary years was, AMALINA. Gosh, I miss her so much. It’s been ages that we saw each other (almost 6 YEARS!!). She was the first friend that I considered as ‘Best Friend’. We pretty much do everything together. From going to the toilet, to help carrying books for the teacher and even going to the canteen!!. She always help me buy stuff since I’m butt lazy to queue. Hehe.. But she was extremely kind and helpful enough to do it for me. I love her for everything that she did for me. The good, the bad, the ugly, the fights, the tears, the laughter we shared were good. And I’m a bad friend if I ever forget those things.

These 3 girls are a pain the butt, extremely annoying, boring, frustrating, depressed BUT that what makes me LOVE THEM TO DEATH !!!!

So, Asiemah,Aiza, Amalina. I love you guys so so much! Three of you have gorgeous souls that I really wish I have. Thank you for being soo patient with me throughout our friendship.

Ps : You guys are soo not a pain in the butt and all. It’s a completely opposite of that. =)

Sick.

I hate being sick on exam day i.e, today. I had to do maths while I sneezed and sniffed and blew my mucus off. =[

I can multi task but not when I’m sick.

My mind was blank when I set my eyes on the first question.

Now, I can barely remember what I answered.

Oh well, being sick on exam day is not good..!

Till then,

I’m worried.

about a friend of mine.

she trusts the opposite gender easily.

I don’t know if she’s having a culture shock or she just like the attention. But, honestly, you shouldn’t trust the XY chromosomes. *I ain’t hating. But it’s the truth*

I mean, there are 1001 ways the guys can manipulate/use us. Besides, guys and girls can’t really be best friends. Unless one of them are gays. There will always be the word : S.E.X. in between.

I personally do not trust the XY species. Only some of them which I know for years. ONLY. I found it very hard to trust them though I’m super close with them. It also goes the same with the XX species. I don’t know. Maybe it’s just me. But hey, look where it has gotten me! :D

Anyway, back to this case :

I don’t know if her friends are very generous, but she gets all the treats that she wants. I’m not jealous cause I can afford to pay my own stuff. But don’t you smell the fishyness here ? Like, okay.. You just met this dude for like what ? Few days or months and the next thing you know, he’s treating you this and that. I don’t know. Maybe you’re a great friend that makes he wants to treat you. and hey, I get it, friends treat other friends. But, I don’t know.  I’m a bit skeptical in this matter. =|

You may think that my guy friends don’t treat me. But, I do get treated. I like being pampered. But then, I don’t ask for it.

The thing about her is that, she’s super brave. To get in the car with some random dude she met online and let him take her wherever he wants. Dude, that’s scary! Especially when you’re not a local in this area.

I don’t know. Some of you might agree with me, some of you might against it. But, then.. I’m just worried sick of her. She’s small, fragile and a truly a diamond. I just don’t want anything bad happen for her though she told me for a trillion times that she’ll be fine. But, you might never know.

Till then,

 

Hibernates.

I’m feeling super duper sleepy though I slept for like 9 hours. =s

I woke up at 1pm for Maths.

But I was super buzzed when I got to see the toight buns. ;D

It was directly at me. That magnificent creation was directly in front of me. It was perfect! Hehehehe!!

I need the strength to be strong to face the owner of the magnificent creation.

Ps : I miss the days when I could just sleep the whole day without any distractions.

Been longing to post this one

I LOVE this band.

F.U.C.K.

FUCK

FUCK

FUCK

FUCK

FUCKETY FUCK FUCK.

Blame the hormones? I don’t know and I don’t give a FUCK.

URGH !!!!

I just have this urge to scream on top of my lungs.

FUCK!

Jeans.

Dear Mister Anonymous,

Please, turn around and walk in them sexy toight jeans.

I’m not naughty, Just that it’s just there.

Can’t do much about it but just to, stop & stare.

:)

Curiosity kills a cat.

I just want to slit the person’s throat. He tried to make a prank call to me, but guess what ? He’s messing with a wrong girl here. I don’t trash talk about him. But I just go with his flow.. in a sarcastic way that is. I’m very sarcastic. I can be if you make me to.

Anywho, back to this ‘dude’. I think he’s a guy in my college. Probably same course as mine. And MOST PROLLY a guy in abc. I don’t know. I just have this gut feeling saying that he’s from abc. But you never know right?

I asked Haza, Caim and Sadiq. Apparently, they don’t know anyone with that kind of creepy number.

Haihz. It’s the 1st week after mid break and there’s a drama in day one. Great. I wonder what more this sem has got for me.

BTW,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO

AUDI AZHAR!!!!

*The guy with the brightest smile*

<3

Avatar

Watched Avatar with Nani and Rad @ OU. We took the 11.30am show. I thought it’d be like this boring movie. But boy, I was wrong. DEAD wrong.

The movie is the coolest and most expensive movie made. it’ll be a box office. The plot, storyline and all are just awesome.

The movie takes about 2-3 hours. But trust me, you won’t feel it.

I wanna watch Avatar again. This time, with 3D. :)

 

To : Birthday Boy

Dear Andrie Ung Han Xiang,

When I first met you in form 4. You were such a bad ass to me. You annoyed me like hell. Literally like hell, I tell you. You always ‘FUCK YOU’ and I'll be like, ‘Fine..fuck me now,’ But you never did. =p

And I hated you for that. For annoyed me when I first came to KTJ.

But then, things started to change between us when it’s our final year in KTJ. *Form5*. I started to think, it’s my final year and I don’t wanna make a bad history for it. So, I think I should be nice and friendly to you. We had a ‘heart-to-heart’ convo. well, through sms but still consider right?? And, we finally managed to forget the past and move on. :)

Andrie, you look like a total bad ass. But deep down, I know you’re a total cute cuddly teddy bear. You showed me the whole side of you when you have that SAI problem thingy. And I was shocked to see that and glad too :)

Popo Andrie, Finally you’re legal. Yay you!!

Enjoy your day and I wish you the best of luck in whatever you’re doing now and in the future.

Ps : You still owe me that mini cooper ride. ;p

The Baby Steps.

Slowly, I don’t have that feelings towards you anymore.

Oh boy, I’m glad  =)

I hate it when people start commenting on my weight. Like, what the fuck is your problem? It’s my fucking weight and who are you to have the right to say those such things to me ? You think I like it ? I wonder how do you feel when someone says you’re super skinny or anorexic or a pole ? Does it make you feel happy ? Unless being a pole is one of your aim in life which I highly doubt it.

So yes, stop commenting on peoples’ weight. You’re not only angered that person but also lowered down their self esteems.

Stop thinking that you’re so perfect that you think you can call other peoples’ names. I bet there are some flaws that you have but does people list it down for you? I guess not.

FAGGOTS

‘2 Little Lady

Running under the rain through the midst of the heart of Kuala Lumpur. Spotted one little lady wearing a black shawl, jeans and grey top with another little lady with a shoulder length hair, yellow top, sneakers and jeans ran along from BB to Pavilion. What do they cover themselves with ? Plastic beg. Just to cover their heads, but not their body.’

Yesterday has definitely be one of those crazy moments for Afifah and Ruzanna. We were being our usual crazy,wacko selves. Didn’t care less of what people think as long as we enjoyed our magnifawesome time :D

We watched ‘ZOMBIELAND’. I think we are the two crazy girls that laugh our butts off the most. That movie is the shit..! funnayh as hell. There was this one guy sat in front of us. But then, he moved. Zaza’s work! hahaha! So, once the guy left, we put our feet on the chairs. Comfy!!

We went to BB. Bought dress. Zaza never entered there. Can you imagine that!? Tsk Tsk Tsk..

Anywhooooo… Thank god we bought dress cause due to the ‘rain incident’,I changed to my dress. Who wears dress + sneakers?? That was a terrible fashion style and I swear, I would’ve killed myself as long as I didn’t get caught by the fashion police. LOL.

I think I’m gonna buy more stuff kat BB. BB wait for me!! :p

 

14/12/09 – 2 Little Lady caught running under the rain :)

Dear AS,

I don’t know whether that’s just you. Or you just don’t like me have my own circle. But please, do you really have to be AS-ish by adding all of my friends?

Can I just please, have my own life that doesn’t involves you ?

I honestly do love you as a friend. But you don’t need to be IN ALL of my circles. I don’t even care about your circles. Do I even bother to ask and know ALL of your friends? Urmm.. I don’t think so.

So yes, would you please stop your act ? Cause slowly you’re kinda pissing me off.

The Phase

of ‘screamo,metal core, etc’ is *not so officially* over.

Right now, I’m not into those such genre anymore. I do listen. But I don’t enjoy it as much as I used to. I don’t know. Maybe cause there are bunch of posers out there who act like they really ‘love’ those songs. I just don’t want to be categorized into one. And I don’t brag about it. Like, who cares if you like ‘screamo’ and go to such gigs. I mean, CHILL OUT..! I don’t care. You don’t need to be such a show off and brag it to me. Cause I get it, You like it. Ok fineee.. get a grip about it. Geez..~

 

Zero

Last 2 nights, I watched RUSSEL PETERS : RED,WHITE,BROWN.

That guy is funny as hell !!

Btw, I can’t wait to touch,smell,feel my bag that Sarah bought for me @ Buttons!! :D

Mixture of old and new

Imma make a list of songs that’s really been bursting in my winamp.

1. BEP – Alive
2. BEP – Missing you
3. David Guetta – Memories
4. David Guetta – Toyfriend
5. David Guetta – On the Dance Floor
6. Jeremih – Birthday Sex
7. Parachute – She is Love
8. Parachute – The Mess I Made
9. Michelle Branch – Everywhere
10. Michael Buble – Haven’t Met You Yet
11. The Cab – That ‘70s song
12. Coldplay – Strawberry Swing
13. Dashboard Confessional – Stolen
14. Dashboard Confessional – Belle of the Boulevard
15. Lifehouse – Halfway Gone
16. Lady Gaga – Bad Romance
17. Lady Gaga – No Way
18. Lou Bega – Mambo No.5
19. Taylor Swift – Crazier
20. Paolo Nutini – Rewind

There’s a lot more but I’m super lazy to list all.

I can make believe I have everything

But I can’t pretend that I don’t see

That without you girl my life is incomplete

- Sisqo , Incomplete

The Leopard and the Hyena.

Met up Dique @ Starbucks with Haza.

That guy is full of fairytales.

He really has good laugh having fun of me.

Oh well..

Anywho, tomorrow’s Arab. I really have to hit the book!!

Wish me the best of luck.

Ps : Mazni, Sadique said you look matured. Which means, I look like the YOUNGEST among the 4 Noahs

See, being short does help.

1.30am

And I still can’t sleep.

I have chem lab at 8. I just hope it’s cancel because the rest of the class have EXAM. I wish them the best of luck :)

Anywhoo… I’m terrified of going back to sleep. Just incase, I dreamt of ‘it’ again. It really scares the hell out of me. Sadiq shouldn’t say ‘sex appeal’. Look where it has got me!?

My heart was racing when I saw it. Garghh! euwyy..! Why!!? If it’s someone else beside it. I really don’t mind. But it’s IT.

It’s the second dream I have that involves IT

–___-

Skies. Bright Lights.

I can’t believe maths has been postponed to 27TH DEC. Which means I can’t go to ROCK THE WORLD 9.

What the fuckety fuck!?

I have been waiting for it and then BOOM! Fah K told me maths is on 27th.

I AM NOT HAPPY WITH IT!

Pros : I have 3 extra days to polish up my maths.

Cons : IT’S ON FREAKING SUNDAY.

I HAVE TO CANCEL ROTW.

=(

For all the times.

Maths quiz has been postponed  :)

I don’t know why, but lately I kinda have this mood swing thingy. Like, 1 sec I’ll be fine the next thing you know the bitch inside me is roaring to get out. *Exaggerate much*

Whenever the bitch mode is on I feel like I NEED to punch someone. Anyone wanna volunteer? I’ll you a HUGE favor for that =)

I just feel. URGH ARGH GARGH GRR.

but the thing is, WHY NOW?

Wonderful World.

I have to stop cracking my fingers. It’s a bad habit. I’m scared that I will have Arthritis. *Nauzubillah*

Anywho, somehow. I miss my parents.

Sir Faisal really reminds me of ayah. Maybe because :

1. He’s a computer lecturer.

2. He has that ‘IT sense of humor’

Sorry ayah, you’re a cool person. But, I think when you teach, it’s a totally different side of Noah that I’ll see. haha!

But I STILL L.O.V.E. you my ayah! :)

I can’t wait for January.

It’s gonna be a one hell of a week.

Quizzes and more quizzes.

TONNES OF QUIZZES.

And most prolly, EXAMS.

what the fuckety fuck!?

Chem might be this week.

THANK YOU!!

Thanks a bunch UIA for making my life more miserable than it’s already is. I can’t WAIT to see what more you have for me.

‘Little schoolgirl crush’

It annoys me how early I woke up when I have NO morning classes. *i.e, today*. I can’t blamed it.. I slept E.A.R.L.Y. last night. Even my roomie was surprised when I dozed off while doing Physics.

I think I’m letting this feeling go away. ‘Fe Mao’, now you’re off for good in my ‘little schoolgirl crush list’.

I was very sure this was just a temporary fling, and I was glad that it’s true. :)

Btw, where is my twinnie? I didn’t see her online on her msn for these few days. =[

2 Girls.

I spend the awesomest weekend with my sexy aiza. :D

Whenever I’m with her, I know either one or both of us will try something new. This time around, I was the one that was being adventurous.

I tasted ‘kepah’. Her mom cooked masak lemak. DELICIOUS!! I also tried helping the mom in the kitchen, I peeled the pucuk ubi..! I drank JUS KEDONDONG with Asam. HOME MADE YAW. FRESH JUICE. PICKED FROM THE TREE. I cleaned the fruits and Aiza did juice :D

Aiza took me a walk around her house. Her mom plants a lot of trees around the house. I’m not a good tree identifier. Aiza had a grreat laugh while I tried my best to identify the trees. Especially the ‘Mangga/Manggis’ incident. :p

Oh oh she has turkey!!! 2 turkeys!!! At her granddad’s old house. They scared the creep out of me. But they’re sooo ‘healthy’ if you know what I mean..?? =p

Aiza told me she gonna slaughter the turkeys and made it as Subway’s TURKEY TOAST. Aiza.. save some for me!!

We also filled each other’s lives with, G.O.S.S.I.P.S.

So, We’ve created ‘Fe Mao’. I think I’m gonna change it. It sounds awful. I want something that’s cute and truly defines ‘FE MAO’.

I think I’m gonna decorate my place a bit neat-er.

Just got the 1st warning from Madam. Apparently, to her, our room is messy. We’re not messy.. We just have LOTS of stuff. You have a girl from Kedah, Penang and Brunei here. What’d you expect ??

So, last night, me and Yana swept the room and arrange our bags and all.

Here what we found out :

1. We have a lot of hair in the room. So, I told Yana it’d be better if we all shaved our heads.

2. There was a drink underneath a bed. *God knows how long it has been there. LOL

3. Dust Dust Dust. EVERYWHERE.

4. There was a mug. Under the bed.

5. A lot of rubber bands in the room.

Oh, the list can go on and on. But I’d rather stop now.

I HAVE CHEM QUIZ TO DIE FOR. THE FIRST QUIZ..

Wish me luck.

Can I be apart of your memory ?

Just got off the phone with my lovely qibash.

Gosh, I miss her so much. I need to see her this week.

Got lots and lots of catching up to do. That’s for sure =)

And I do hope my llama can make it too!

I know she’s having hols and all. So, now the purrfect timing for us to finally get together and things will hopefully will be like good old times. In our own syok sendiriness world. :)

1 day down, Plenty more to go. Should I go for it after this few days ??

The truth is, I’ve been feeling emo this week.

I just hope next week will be the totally opposite week for me.

I think I’m still not over it. It’s just hard to just let it go. Especially when it keeps on coming back and you’re just there to face it and can’t do anything about it. This bugs me the most. I can’t do anything about it but to just watch it pass me by and pretended as if everything is perfectly normal.

I don’t know how long I have to keep on being like this.

It..Hurts..So..Badly..

 

 

Ps :  Or maybe it wasn’t about IT at all..!! Maybe it’s just my bloody hormone ‘finally’ trying to get right.

MATT NATHANSON

I miss the sound of your voice
And I miss the rush of your skin
And I miss the still of the silence
As you breathe out and I breathe in

If I could walk on water
If I could tell you what's next
I'd make you believe
I'd make you forget

So come on, get higher, loosen my lips
Faith and desire and the swing of your hips
Just pull me down hard
And drown me in love

So come on, get higher, loosen my lips
Faith and desire and the swing of your hips
Just pull me down hard
And drown me in love

I miss the sound of your voice
Loudest thing in my head
And I ache to remember
All the violent, sweet
Perfect words that you said

If I could walk on water
If I could tell you what's next
I'd make you believe
I'd make you forget

So come on, get higher, loosen my lips
Faith and desire and the swing of your hips
Just pull me down hard
And drown me in love

So come on, get higher, loosen my lips
Faith and desire and the swing of your hips
Just pull me down hard
And drown me in love

I feel of your heart
I taste the sparks on your tongue
I see angels and devils
And God, when you come on
Hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on
Sing sha la la la
Sing sha la la la la

So come on, get higher, loosen my lips
Faith and desire and the swing of your hips
Just pull me down hard
And drown me in love

So come on, get higher, loosen my lips
Faith and desire and the swing of your hips
Just pull me down hard
And drown me, drown me in love

It's all wrong, it's all wrong
It's all wrong, it's so right
So come on, get higher
So come on and get higher
'Cause everything works, love
Everything works when you're on

I swear, I’ll melt and totally will love whoever sings me this song.

I ain’t gonna lie. I’m a bit heart broken. Yes, I might look all mighty fine and content. But that’s just the outside. Inside, I’m torn bits by bits. There’s nothing I can do but just to pretend that I’m enjoying the ride of a lifetime. It’s sickening me. I don’t know how long I can stand being like this.

I know part of me would be very sad and I might break down and cry. There’s also a part of me would be very happy and wish it the best of luck.

I just don’t know how to face it. I have a grrreat instinct that *thethingwhichIcan’treallydescribe* will sort of come true. I can see it.

When the day come, will I be ready to accept it ?

I know I have to.

N.A.M.N

I wanna know what’s on your mind.

I might be feeling perasan now but at least can you please be honest with me?

I need some sign. Good or bad, I don’t mind. But A sign. That’s all I need. That’s all I’m wishing for.

We can carry on like this or we can just be frank to each other and things will still be the same.. or not.

I’m ready.. are you?

Catch me up..

I pretty much hope it’d come true. *fingers crossed*

Now, I’m not sure whether it’s a sign or just a plain joke we always kid around. You see, this is what bugs me off the most. THIS.

This is what you’ll get if you mess with me.

I am very irritated by the bloody fucking ‘goody-two-fucking-shoes’ in this hypocrisy idiocy place.

Spare me a fucking life.PLEASE.

What did I do wrong to you? Do I even interfere into your ‘oh-so-glamicious’ life? I don’t even bother to get to know you and who the hell are you to interfere in my life and telling me what’s wrong and what’s right as If I’m a six year old kid that you can order to?

I don’t know how they can live in a world full of phoneys and lies. I can’t imagine starting a new day with the same old tactics and another lie. Aren’t they sick and tired of it or they just simply love being hypocrites?

It’s as if they’ve never been in a mixed gender environment. Like, HELLOO..ARE YOU FROM EARTH OR FROM PLANET LOSER?? Or the harsh sentence I can think of is, ‘Do you even have a mother or female relatives in your bloody family or you’re just plain gay?’

God, spare me a life. I need to be myself once in a while. I need to live like an ordinary person. I need to let loose once in a while.

Squeeze me, but I wasn’t born in a single sex planet. I was born on planet EARTH. Where there are actually dicks and boobs swarming around. Squeeze my french. But I just need to clear the air.

And to that bloody whatdoyoucallit? Ohh.. FSCC *fuckingsexistcuntcreature* ; FUCK YOU. I DON’T GIVE A FUCK ABOUT YOUR BLOODY ‘SO-CALLED’ HARSH WARNING. GO AND SUCK BALLS. GO SUCK THAT SICKLY DICK OF YOURS AND GET A LIFE.

Saya rindu Chicoz!

Iman Alia Anuar dan Aiza Alias!

Saya rindu kamuuu..

Alia, cepat laaa abis final tuu.. Pastu kte jln2 k? and yes, msti ngan Aiza gak!! OU, PAVI.. anywhere.. Just tell me. :D

And we’ll have our taxi adventure again!!

Alia ; I’m sorry about that ‘MERSING’ thingy. That old man didn’t tell me earlier that it was cancelled. LAST MINUTE SOME MORE!! Supposedly, my brother picked me up @ night. So I thought if it’s cancelled, we can meet up at OU or somewhere and watch MJ. Then, I go back at night. But.. My sis picked me up @ noon. Around 1 to be exact. I thought you’ll be fine with it since you were gonna watch it your fam. Once again, I’m sorry !! And I won’t get over it no matter how many times you told me to. I just can’t. And Again, I’m sorry !!!

Aiza ; Thank you for coming to my not so glamorous apartment. Sorry that it was damn messy and about my brother’s incident tuu..well, let’s just not talk about it anymore k? Hehe.. I’m sorry for my brother’s ‘oh so humiliating’ behavior that day. He was being, well, his usual pigself. Especially in front of others. I swear, next time around, he won’t be in the apartment. I can assure you that. :D

To two of my loveliest creature in the entire world ;

I don’t know how my life would be If both of you are not with me. X ksah laa we always meet up or not, but I’m very blessed that though we’re not in same college, we managed to find free time and keep in touch. And for that, I’m truly grateful to have both of you in my life.. You both really know how to cheer me up when I’m down. When I’m mad, I know both of you will be there for me and listen to me nag and nag and scream and curse like a mother bitch. Better yet, we all get along so well that we often got carried away with our syok sendiriness that many people outside our circle don’t get us..sometimes..well, all the time.. actually!! Hehe.. No matter what, I know that you both got my back. And in favor, my back is on you guys.. =)

Reminiscing the good times

I miss being the old Afifah Noah.

The young,wild,naive and carefree Afifah Noah.

The Afifah Noah where my friends in KTJ and SMSSA knew.

Not ‘this’ kind of Afifah Noah.

The boring,depressed,sad and pathetic Afifah Noah.

I thought I would be able to adapt to this place since I’ve been here for almost 2 sem. But then again, it’s a wishful thinking. Being in this place is utterly opposite than KTJ nor SMSSA.

Here, ALL of the people are malay. I miss having Chinese,Indians, Koreans and other races walking around in campus. I miss having other cultures and religions crammed in one place. I miss screaming,shouting and laughing like it’s nobody’s business. I miss sitting next to opposite gender in the class and we don’t give a fuck about it. I miss having a good laugh with my best mates. I miss the time where people won’t be there to complain your clothing.

I miss it all.

Chemistry – thinking of Specy

Arab – thinking of how my weekend gonna be

Yess… Afifah is staying in CFS this week. Wish me the best of luck.

It’s gonna be a loooooooong weekend.

I like Diq’s new watch!! It’s freaking sexy just like the owner. haha!!

Okaaay, I soo can’t get over this one dude. I should stop blabber about him.. Naughty2 Ppah~

Oh Oh.. Met ILHAM !! That one naughty little devil.. Tsk Tsk Tsk.. My next victim, I suppose!?? Hehehe.. ;p

So, Mr.Saturday and Sunday. How Shall we spend our days ??

Do you know that I’m thinking of you?

 

Just when I thought today would be such a blissful day …

I was wrong

The OGRE was in my class.

Grrr..

Haza had fun making fun of me  =.=

Haihz..

Please God, make tomorrow a better day.

 

 

 

It’s the uncertain feelings intrigues me

Today is soo not a good day.

Grr..

This is when I really needs my mom the most.

 

I miss my mom!

Recap of the Weekend

Friday :

1. Ate at Garden’s. *Deliciousss…*

2. Played @ the arcade. Street basketball gave me muscle ache. *Been a while didn’t exercise. That’s why!!!*

Highlight of Friday :

Watched ‘MICHAEL JACKSON : THIS IS IT’ with Nani and Rad, the late night show. It was worth it!! Felt like watching his concert. =’[

Saturday :

1. Cooked lunch with Nani.

2. Went to BUKIT JALIL for AAR’s CONCERT! Followed Nani and Rad then met Sarah, Dila, Hazim and Fariz =)

TYSON RITTER DRESSED UP AS A NATIVE AMERICAN. SEXY BEAST! * Tyson : ‘You’re the sexiest crowd’* drools.

Sunday :

Watched Road Trip Beer Pong.

Swore to myself to go internet-less for 3 days*Thursday : 00.00 hr*

Went to basketball court to see INTECH and ENGENIUS trained for SMAC

I need to download more movies.

Saturday

Going to AAR =D

Can’t wait to see Sarah and Dila.

Oh.. I hope Fazlin will be there!!

 

 

 

I think I’m falling for you

And please,

make it stop

Funny man

This guy can makes me pee in my pants ;D

 

129 – la la la

Jadual like **** !!! Even **** is nicer than the arrangement of the timetable. Seriously wei, I’m tired of going to the hall and settle this Add/Drop thingy.

I’m exhausted.. I nak tidor nak nescafe nak gula2 nak coklat.

Class esk pkl 8, maths2. Heard Mdm Hazaliza gonna teach maths2. Hopefully it’s her =D

Hopefully Wani won’t be teaching me for Chem1 this sem.. AGAIN

Aiza might be right about that thing. She keeps on telling me that and I keep on making excuses. Oh geez.. What should I do?? This shouldn’t be happening to me. I need something to distract my mind of it. I don’t need another problem in my life.

Till then bloggie

 

128

 

  

Can’t wait for the 2nd Season!!!

I want you to want me

I need you to need me

I’d love you to love me

I’m begging you to beg me

127.

I paid $50 just to clear the fine and see my result.

Have to say that my result is not as what I expected it to be.

BUT.. NO REGRET! =)

Seriously feels like Chuck Norris slapped your face telling you

‘WAKE UP !! THIS IS NOT A SCHOOL ANYMORE!’

*kappoooww*

Talked to daddy about add n drop. He gave me quite an interesting idea =)

I’ll reconsider.. but parents know best, right ??

Hmm..

My sis wasn’t happy with my result. Oh well, what to do.

Told her I’m gonna redeem the mistakes I made on sem1.

Huhu..

 

Part 126

Back in UIA.

Boring.

My roomies are not back yet, well, one of them went out. I think..

Done unpacking. Phew.. That took quite awhile.

Went lunch at Tony Roma’s (Mid Valley).

Ate New York Strip. YUM!

I wanna eat there again.

I want corn!!

I’m thirsty and I need water..

=[

Please make this feeling stop.

That’s all I need for now

Part 125 – Disappear.

So.. Tomorrow, sem2 starts. Gargh!!!!!

Result x kluar lg. Ada unsettled debt

For some reason, I’m anxious of my result.

Maybe a bit nervous and scared.

X nak balik UIA

X nak balik UIA

X nak balik UIA

X nak balik UIA

I’m envy of Nilai students.

X nak balik UIA

X nak balik UIA

X nak balik UIA

X nak balik UIA

X NAK BALIK UIA!!!

Part 124 – A change of heart.

Bye Mr.Gigi Putih

No more I gila2kan you.

So you can show ur gigi putih to other girls out there.

But you’re still my ‘uber confident’ guy. =D

……………………………………………………………………………

I’ve decided my new obsession is :

MATT NATHANSON!

Till then bloggie since Idzham Adli won’t stop telling me to TIDO!! (…)

Part 123 – Hello..Goodbye

Tomorrow, I’ll be leaving to MALAYSIA. Bye Brunei, I see you on February.

God, 2nd sem starts on 25th.. Can’t wait!! (…)

Tomorrow, result keluar.. Feel like puking thinking of it.

 

Part 122 – Movie Review

So, I watched ‘THE LAST HOUSE ON THE LEFT’ with my familia.

I was very psyched to see the grueling part. I was rather sad by it cause it’s not as gruesome as I thought it would be.

Overall, it’s a good movie.. ;D

I like the last part, where guy’s head was put in a microwave =)

 

Part 121 - Saw

It’s such a bummer that SAW 6 is banned in MALAYSIA.. Well, actually.. ALL of the saw movies cause it’s too violence.

I LOVE SAW (1,2,3,4,5) and I heard that SAW 6 is premiering on HALLOWEEN. Gosh.. If only I’m in US. LOL

AMANDA YOUNG is still alive in saw 6. Hmm.. Wasn’t she got killed in saw 4?? Hmmm… Another jigsaw’s brilliant idea ;)

 

I CAN’T WAIT TO WATCH SAW 6!!!!! RELEASE THE DVD ASAP !

lmao.

Part 120 – HUSH.

I was browsing through deviantART and randomly type HUSH. Here are some of the pretty pics that I LOIKE :))

I think that’s all I’m gonna blog :D

Part 119 – Thou shalt not facebook too often

That should be the next commandment! Alia and I thought that all of our topics that we talk about either all of it or some link to FACEBOOK. Grr.. Not healthy

So, I shall stop facebooking every bloody time

I DON’T want to end up like this little feller

 

Part 118 – Hot Hot Heat

Sadiq told me : "Don’t stay single for too long fah”

I donno but 2 years is not soo long right? I mean, I know a friend of mine who doesn’t has a boyfriend/girlfriend since they were small!! So, I don’t think 2 years is long enough.

Besides, I don’t think I’m ready to be in a relationship.

I’m pretty much happy with my life. I have all the love I need from my family, bffs and friends.

I will be in a relationship soon, but for now, let me just enjoy the freedom I have.. until the next lucky guy managed to melt my cold stone heart =)

 

Everything in it`s right time everything in it`s right place
I know I`ll settle down one day
But `til then I like it this way it`s my way

- Single

I don't need a man to make it happen
I get off being free
I don't need a man to make me feel good
I get off doing my thing

- I don’t need a man

ME MYSELF AND I
THAT'S ALL I GOT IN THE END
THAT'S WHAT I FOUND OUT
AND IT AIN'T NO NEED TO CRY
I TOOK A VOW THAT FROM NOW ON
I'M GONNA BE MY OWN BEST FRIEND

- Me, Myself and I

Part 117 – Can’t take it no more

I thought we were friends

But now I know that you just used me.

So, let’s just not be friends…

for now..

Until I can find ways to forgive you

Slowly you’re fading away from me

No longer can I grasp onto you

Or rely on you

Now, I’m on my own

Part 116 – Why Can’t We just ‘REWIND’

I WAS/AM/FOREVER WILL BE OBSESSING OVER :

THIS SEXY CREATURE

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I still remember how he got into my life. I was watching MTV then his song was on ‘NEW SHOES’. Suddenly, I was drawn in his deep,husky sexy voice. That night, I searched his other youtube videos and started downloading his songs. Since then, I’ve been following his updates =))

It’s quite sad how not many people know him. He is such a talented and shall I say, orgasmic artist!! I loike watching him singing live on youtube

 

No Sleeping at night

Cause I’m going from bar to bar

Why can’t we just rewind

Part 115 – Let’s Dance

I am bored. My friends gonna have their exams soon and I don’t wanna disturb them. *I wonder if they really study 24/7? I always take them to go out, and their response are : STUDY. I mean.. yea, I get it.. you have exam.. but you need to let loose too u knoww!??

Hmm.. oh well..~

ANYWAY, I can’t wait to D-R-I-V-E!! I am 17 and by law, I CAN TAKE THE DRIVING TEST THINGY (in Msia that is). BUT NOOOO.. Big boss told me that I should get my license when I’m 18 and do it in BRUNEI ! Urghh.. DADDY!!!! Grr.. Ok, I get it that in Brunei that it’s faster to get the license without the P but but but.. by that time, I NEED TO HAVE A CAR SO I CAN DRIVE AROUND IN KL ESP. IN GOMBAK SINCE THE CAMPUS IS HUGE!!! Hmm… That’s what I heard.

Hmm.. I think I wanna trim my hair. It’s been 2 months I didn’t go to a salon. Geee…

I’ve lost my point in blogging.

Gonna surf the net until I’m bored. TEE HEE!!

 

 

 

I was trying to fly but I couldn’t find wings

but you came along and you changed everything

 

Part 114 – Locked Eyes.

I won’t ever get over THE LONELY ISLAND. EVER! They’re very very funny !!! Esp. Andy Samberg. He’s cute too though. LOL

Anyway.. I’m now back in Brunei, Abode of Peace :))

I heard nudge is here for the hols. I’ll try to sms him one day and maybe try to lepak with him. LOL

I’m very very happy to be back home. Now, I’m united again with my ‘pumpkin and dog’. Unfortunately, I have to leave my Caterpillar with nani at Domain since it’s too big to squeeze into my bag. =[

And I forgot my NEUTROGENA FACIAL WASH!! Left it at Domain. shit! But I brought the scrub. LOL

Gonna buy it tomorrow then. haihzz.

I can’t wait to spend my 3 weeks hols!! Gonna be lots and lots of lazing around and catching up with my friends! :))

Give me a sign. That’s all I need.

Part 113 – Today

in less than 10 hours.. Afifah Noah will be free as a bird. No more exams.. Helloooo holiday!! :D

The so much needed breaks :D

And yes, HAPPY HOLIDAYS TO ALL THE UIA STUDENTS..

ENJOY THE NORMAL LIFE OUTSIDE THE CAMPUS.

CHEERS ;D

PS : Can’t wait to go back Brunei :D

Pat 112 – Peaches and Cream.

FINALLY… MARIAH,JANET AND BEYONCE HAVE THEIR GRRRAND REUNION!!

I shall say, it’s really is a something!! But but but.. THE 3 OF US DIDN’T BRING OUR CAMERAS. SHITTY RIGHT ???? After all, it’s THE Grand Reunion we all been dying for.. When it comes, we didn’t bring cameras. Grrrr.. =[

However.. Alia used her phone cam to take the pics. Tho it’s only like less than 10.. Better than nothing right ??? heee… *Upload the pics girl!!*

Well.. I fetched Alia first. *By taxi okayy..? I soo don’t have a license. LOL. We had a complication though. I wasn’t soo sure of which way to her house.. So she called me all the way from UIA to her house. :DD

The taxi driver didn’t know the way to her house AND to PAVILION!!! What the hell right ??? Instead, I have to guide him all the way from her house to pavilion. Thank god.. Mostly, I just follow my instinct. LOL!! The taxi driver wanna lie to us by saying the fare is 30! I looked at the meter and it’s only 28.60!!! Fucking idiot! He should’ve give us discount cause he didn’t know the way to Alia’s house. Fucking retard! Grr..

Anywho.. Went to Coronade Hotel since I have to change my clothes. HAHA.. Aiza didn’t know that Alia gonna come since we both think it’d be better if it’s a surprise. heee… Aiza was soooooo shocked to see Alia there! She ran back and hid. LOL.. cute right?? Hahahahaha..

After I changed and all.. We went straight to Pavi. We had a very difficult decision of where to eat. So, in the end.. We decided to eat at this thai restaurant ‘RAIN NUDLE RESTAURANT’. The tom yam was nicee!!!! and the seating too!! They have this pillows.. Heee.. ;D

We went to f21.. The dresses there didn’t caught my eyes. It’s pretty.. but.. naahh… So, we went to the cinema. Bought tix @ 4.20pm ‘Sorority Row’. Then, q-ing for the popcorn. GOOOSH… SERIOUSLY.. THERE WAS A BUNCH OF KIDDOS BUYING POPCORN.. ONE BY ONE.. WE WERE LIKE.. GOSHH.. JUST LET ONE PERSON BUY POPCORN FOR ALL THE DIVIDE LA THE MONEY. GOOSH!! –_-’

Anywho.. The movie was urmm.. quite funny and scary too though. I think 3 of us have this weird sense of humor.. Almost everybody in the cinema were like serious and all. Except us. We were laughing and criticizing the movie the whole time. LOL. But it was an okay moviee for u to go watch with ur girlfriends. The killing part aren’t as gruesome as final destination. But it’s suspense.. and annoying to know who is the killer. hahaha..

So..After the movie, went to ISETAN cause aiza wanna buy food and forks. Then, we parted our ways. The cab driver was very friendly =D

Hmm.. Tomorrow got another plan with Haza :D

Karaoke session bitches!!! LOL!!

For the first time, I learn not to think of you

And guess what? It feels good :))