is feeling a bit manja tonight

Ayah ngan mama x call angah for few days.

one word : RINDU!

Cepat lah 6th September datang!

I blame Michael Buble’s (Home) , Kings of Convenience (Home Sick) and those sad sad family songs.

Blagh.

=(

RINDU SANGAT SANGAT SANGAT!

A procrastinator at its best

I know I should be doing my assignment right now. But I seriously have NO idea on how to even start it. Yes. It’s been a YEAR that I haven’t written a single essay. A proper essay that is. Blogging shouldn’t be considered as essay cause it doesn’t have a nice introduction and conclusion. Okay. Now I’ve started to blab. –_________-

Yesterday has got one of my best day with Aiza. We thought it would be the 3 of us. But too bad Alia is at Melaka with her family. It was supposed to be the DIVAS Iftar. but sowkay! We’ll have one after this. InsyaAllah.

We ate at MICHELANGELO. I ordered this pasta thingy. It has chicken wrapped inside it. NOT ravioli. It’s like the lasagna sheet and minced chicken was inside it and it’s super Cheesy. Super Super cheesy. I loveee it !! Aiza had seafood aglio. Oh. She ordered this seafood platter consist of Mr.Prawns, Mr.Squidwards and Mr.soft shell CRAB! It was my first time ate Mr.Crab and it’s delish!! I like it!! And addition to that, I had itchy nose. Kuddos pipah but sedap punya pasal. Bantai je! Hehe

We watched REPO MEN and STEP UP 3D.

REPO MEN : Sis told me it’s effing gory and a bit like Saw. I was excited once she told me that. But it wasn’t as gruesome as I thought it’ll be. But it’s still a good movie. We sat next to this annoying guy. He kept on screaming, laughing and did this weird thing lah in the cinema. Giler spoil the mood nak tengok crita tu. Urghh..

Oh..! The last battle scene is sooo 300-ish. But I like the fact so many blood spurt out and you can see the parts that were torn. And besides, you can see JUDE LAW IN ACTION. Hotness overload!!!!!

STEP UP 3D : TOTAL KICK ASS AWESOMENESS DOPE SHIT! I love love love the dance scenes. The dancers are the sex!! The 3D effect is good too. No. Not good but EXCELLENT! Finally, this time Moose got most of the attention. I love their first World Jam battle. Their rival team, they danced zombie-like. It was so cool. I kind of predicted of who Natalie is. The storyline is so boring and dead but what makes STEP UP 3D cool is their dance scenes and the song selection. Whoever is working under the music supervisor thingy, YOU ARE BRILLIANT! *I think his name is Bear something* Ohh! BEAR! I like your ears and good taste of music! Kinda disappointed cause Camille didn’t dance much. She’s such a good dancer. I love the girl with red hair. She’s HOT!

Ok. Now I should really do my assignment.

Toodles!

Why do bad guys are always catching my eyes

  

 

Oh. Before I end this. Let me show you pictures of IAN SOMERHOLDER

 

 

Pull me down

#nowplaying Joe – Metaphor

Can’t wait for VAMPIRE DIARIES SEASON TWO

&

GOSSIP GIRL SEASON FOUR.

For now, I have to finish my OTH SEASON 7 & several other movies that has been waiting in line for ages. Lol.

I’m such a torrent whore but I haven’t watched any of the movies that I’ve downloaded. Yes. Buat penuhkan hard disk je!! Apa lah pipah ni.

Anyway..

This evening, me and Azyan were talking bunch of crap till we’ve come across with ‘TURTLE – TORTOISE’ convo. Now I know what’s the difference between those two. She got to do this hand gesture thingy so that I can differentiate between them. Lol.

This is a TORTOISE. It’s more on the land and has that kind of solid hand rather than flappy kind (Hope you really got what I mean.. Ehek Ehek)

And this is a TURTLE! And this is the one that swims super duper fast and just lay on the beach and lay about hundreds of eggs. And it is the flappy kind. Ehek Ehek

I love those two. They’re such a slow, wonderful and cute creature. =)

 

Stay away from Juliet.

#nowplaying Terrified – Katherine McPhee ft Zachary Levi

I can’t wait on 6th Sept where my sister and mom would come down to KL. and with my dad too. Maybe. Or he will come later. But whatever it is, I am super excited. I can’t wait to eat my mom’s cook. Imagine, for 3 months (and counting) I haven’t had a single food cooked by my mom, The greatest chef in the entire world!

She cooks the best Ikan Sambal or ‘Ikan Pedas’(I named it myself cause it’s the first fish dish that I ate and it’s spicy but DELISH!!). I always ask my mom to cook it for me whenever I got a long term break and would be back in Brunei ever since I was in Form 4.

She also cooks the best NASI DAGANG! It used to be a tradition where my mom will cook nasi dagang on the first day of Raya. I would wake up early in the morning and rushed to the kitchen to have the smell of it. I would have it the most *As usual*. I love the texture of the rice. It is cooked with ‘santan’ or coconut milk. The gravy is super tasty! Cook it with Ikan Tongkol or we called it ‘Ikan Stone Cold’. LOL. But now, she doesn’t cook nasi dagang anymore. I always told her to cook it every time during raya but perhaps being maid-less is hard especially when she has to do all the chores.

Another dish I love is : BUBUR or PORRIDGE!! It doesn’t matter whenever I’m sick or not, but mom will cook it. She will prepare so many condiments that at the end of the day, my bowl will be filled with them.Hehehe.. I love my mom’s porridge. It beats the heck of McD’s chicken porridge right in the core of the bowl! And besides, my mom’s porridge is not too soupy. It’s just right. Not too soggy and too watery. Just the way that I like it. =)

Next in my mom’s favorite dish would be … TOM YAM!! Although it’s not as Spicy and clear as the original Thai ones but I love it cause it has a pinch of curry in it. Especially when she put so many carrots in it. SO CRUNCHY!! I love love love!! She rarely put prawns or seafood in it cause my other siblings are not a big fan of seafood. Especially my sisters. So she either put beef or chicken but it’s still super tastilicious!

I think this is the effect of fasting. Making you crave for more food. Oh wow. Zis is bad.

Anyway, I’m off to study my butt off now.

Till then.

 

#nowplaying Michael Buble – You don’t know me.

It took me a long loong looong time to Google Search this song. First heard it on HIMYM. And kept on playing that part just to hear the song. Yes… I even know what their scripts are. LOL.

Finally searched it on YOUTUBE and TADAAA~ There it was : Michael Buble – You don’t know me. Should’ve just youtubed it! Apa lah pipah ni! *slaps forehead for the gazillionth times*

Anyway..!!

Had berbuka with MUIZ, BEHA, AMAR AND ZAZA @ Chili’s. First planned at California Pizza Kitchen but .. EPIC FAIL ! they said the queue was too long. So, off to Chili’s we go!! Had MONTEREY CHICKEN & ICE LEMON TEA. Yum!!!

To Musadique : DO HAVE YOUR HEADPHONES ON MASA SKYPE NNT! AT LEAST I WON’T TALK LIKE A STUPID PERSON ALONE!! *Feels weird when you’re talking alone and the other person typed* My fault too cause I’m such a sloth to even type. Hahahaha.

He is so so hot! and has such an amazing voice! =)

Till then..

Chipsmore

That’s how you are.

Sekejap ada. Sekejap xde. Apa laaah.. kasi kepala aku tension je!!

Pastu x cukup ngan ke-chipsmore-an ko.. sanggup plak ko maen2 kan my feelings ni kan. Haihz.. Mmg nak kena lah ko ni mr.chipsmore!!

Siap kau.. Nnt aku jumpa, aku sekeh2 kepala ko tu eh..

X cukup ngan tu, ngan kau skali aku NGAAAAP mcm chipsmore. Apa mcm?? ada bran x?

hahaha..

Ps : kna tdo untuk sahur.

Untouchable like a distant diamond sky

That’s how you are to me now. You’re becoming distant to me.

Honestly, I don’t know if it’s me who’s acting weird or it’s you.

Come to think of it, it’s like we’re both being awkward and mean towards each other whenever we see each other. It’s so strange. We used to be able to talk about so many things. And now, even wanting to start a simple conversation always make me feel self-conscious and think about it million..billion..trillion..gazillion times!

Just so you know, it hurts me to see you acting like that. Acting as if I don’t ever exist to you. But I like to let the optimism kicks in and think that maybe .. JUST MAYBE .. you’re a shy person.

Or maybe you’re just a better actor than me.

I’ve blurted it. Now, I’m waiting for your part. It’s not fair that I’ve done mine and you haven’t. Even though the truth might hurt me, but it’s better knowing it than leave it hanging.  At least if it’s hurting me, I can move on and jump on the next chapter. Better yet.. End this sad, annoying story of me and you and start over a new book.

To my Siemy

On 11th August, my precious sweetest friend, Asiemah Zakaria has turned 19 !!

For 4 consecutive years, I couldn’t celebrate her birthday. I feel like a bad friend!! I can only wish her through fb. I lost her number since I’ve changed mine. =[

Siemy.. there’s so many things that we’ve been through together. I remember you’re the first person I will always go to whenever I have problems or not. And you, you are kind enough to hear my endless whine. You are always by my side. It’s not easy to find someone who would do that to you. And for that, I am forever grateful to have you as my best friend. =)

Siemy.. I miss our time.. Our high school time. Our gossip time.. Our jokes.. Our boy talks.. I really do. I wish I could rewind time and stay in that moment.

Siemy.. I can’t wait to come back Brunei on Nov and meet up with you. You are on my top list to do when I come back to Brunei! *wait.. it sounds wrong*  We will meet up either by hook or by crook! Once I got my license, it’ll be easier for me to go to your house and pick you up. Stuff like that.. =)

Siemy.. I’m sorry that this post is a wee bit late. But better late than never right!!? Hehehe..

I miss you Siemy.. <3

 

 

Masquerade

Alas!! I don’t need to worry more about my charm bracelet!

Yesterday, before we went out to fetch Ayah Mal and Ayib at LCCT, I told my sis to go to the post box. And there it was…!!! In a small package. =)

*blurry*

Oh, we had sungkai at Melia Hotel. And guess what?? The whole menu is all about SEAFOOD! Oh yea! Me likey! They have ABC, CENDOL, KUIH MELAKA, BAKSO, NASI MINYAK, FISH CURRY, PRAWN TOM YAM, TAUHU SUMBAT, COLD TANDOORI CHICKEN, LOTS AND LOTS OF ULAM AND SAMBALS. Oh yea! THERE’S A LOT! And the food is noice too! =D

Then, we went to Times Square.. Thought of watching any movies. But then, most of the movies start quite late and along was worried about Betty. So, we cancelled the movie.

And finally, I GOT MY CAMERA CHARGER!! Thank you mama, ayah and adik!! Hehehe.. =)

Ohh.. I need to hit the shower so badly!

Till then..

Gravity

Songwriters: Bareilles, Sara

Something always brings me back to you
It never takes too long
No matter what I say or do
I still feel you here 'til the moment I'm gone

You hold me without touch
You keep me without chains
I never wanted anything so much
Than to drown in your love and not feel your rain

Set me free, leave me be
I don't wanna fall another moment into your gravity
Here I am and I stand so tall
I'm just the way I'm supposed to be
But you're on to me and all over me

You loved me 'cause I'm fragile
When I thought that I was strong
But you touch me for a little while
And all my fragile strength is gone

Set me free, leave me be
I don't wanna fall another moment into your gravity
Here I am and I stand so tall
I'm just the way I'm supposed to be
But you're on to me and all over me

I live here on my knees
As I try to make you see
That you're everything I think I need
Here on the ground

But you're neither friend nor foe
Though I can't seem to let you go
The one thing that I still know
Is that you're keeping me down

You're keeping me down

You're on to me, on to me and all over
Something always brings me back to you
It never takes too long

Arabs.

It is not a norm for us to be dressed like an Arab. When Engenius AGD & Gala Night came up with the theme : ARABIAN NIGHT. It was ‘THE PERFECT OPPORTUNITY’ for me and Haza to go all 'Arabs’. Included the other girls too.

That night, I wore purdah and abaya. The one I bought at Brunei. It was a perfect abaya cause it came up with the shawl too. The shawl is long enough for me to wrap it and turned it into purdah + shawl. Which I learned it from Haza and Azyan. I did my own make up yaw! I didn’t need anyone’s help this time which is a major achievement for me. *Since I have a lot of history of needed help from a lot of people to do my make up. lol*. I guess, I really need to do my make up at the very last minute since it was pretty ok compared to when I took a very long time to do it and I’ll end up coloring my own face as if it’s a coloring book. =|

We did our GRAND ENTRANCE. Woot Woot!! Everyone was ‘wooooww…’ when they saw us came with full of style and elegance. Hahaha.. Sorry, was a wee bit exaggerating. But it was true. Lots of people were shocked to see us came with purdah and stuff. They said they almost didn’t recognize me. But once they heard either my laughter or my voice, it was recognizable. Nyehh.. I wanted to be one of those mysterious, sultry arab looking chica. EPIC FAIL MUCH!? Kekekekeke.. >.<

Overall, it was a good dinner. Good food. Good company. Good time. Me and my girls had one of our best laugh ever. It was fun being with them. =)

Ohh.. And I do think that wearing purdah is so sexy. Especially when it only focuses on the eye. So I can put on thick, super black eyeliner and still able to look sexy without having to do anything! A look is all it takes. Hehehe..

(Do we have what it takes to be The next arabian celup?)

(With my lovely Sha and Sapek)

(With the Festiven Arts & recreation Crew. All the sweats and tears are worth it! <3)

    (With the GREAT GREAT company : Sha, me, Nad, Haza *Top* *Bottom* : fatin, afi, cheera)

A & C

In the room, feeling so tired. Look at the bed, but Rai was on it. Doing her chem report. Sighed. Took the laptop and played with it. Took a look at the mirror, sighed again. Thinking : “Still need to remove the eyeliner so badly”. Look at kettle filled with water. On the switch. Let it boil. Continue talking to Rai and Azysmazzy while chatted with few guys on fb.

*now I don’t know the reason why I’m writing the details of my every actions*

Due to my jobless and random mode, I googled BUAYA. I found a lot of buaya. Now, I know what is BUAYA TEMBAGA *the biggest buaya yawww.. soo scary looking* , BUAYA AIR TAWAR *one of the ugliest buaya i’ve seen* , BUAYA AIR MASIN, BUAYA PUCHONG *this one also big.. like buaya tembaga.. or is it buaya tembaga but at Puchong..??hmmmmm..*, BUAYA ALBINO *soooo weird looking to see white crocodile*

I was becoming more and more interested in BUAYA. So, I searched what’s the difference between CROCODILE and ALLIGATOR. (HERE)

Another random schamazom from me. a tired me.

 

Been a while I’ve neglected my blog. Sorry people! Been super duper busy with life lately. Now only I’ve got the time to do some blogging.

I’ve come across with this one ‘special’ quote :

“If you love someone, set them free. If they come back they're yours; if they don't they never were.”

Thank you RICHARD BACH for creating that thing up.

In my personal opinion, I dislike this very very much. I can’t think of a reason why you should set someone free though you love him/her so much. It’s a cowardly act. HONESTLY.

I personally think that if you truly love that someone, you have to do whatever it takes to prove to him/her that you are worth of all the actions you did. What you need to show is the EFFORT that you would do whatever it takes to keep her/him long enough with you. It’s true you can’t force someone to love you, but feelings change. It just takes time.

People said you do crazy things when you’re in love. So, why not you act all crazy and out of the box just to show that you love that person and NOT backing out and let her/him walks away and in the end, you will end up with nothing but a broken heart and a depressed self for a couple of months.

If you do end up doing those crazy stuff, at least you’ll be relieved to let your feelings out and let that person knows how much she/he truly means in your life. He might think that you’re obsessed or anything but as in a song ‘Cheryl Cole – Fight for this love’ : Anything that’s worth having, is sure enough worth fighting for. We gotta fight fight fight for this love. =)

So, guys and gals. Don’t be afraid to express your feelings and keep holding on to your loved ones. If you can’t make her happy, try to find that ‘mojo’ in a relationship and work it!! Don’t back out and think, “I want you to be happy. But it’s not with me kind of crap”. That kind of crap only exists if you’re butt lazy to make a change in you, your partner and the relationship!

My advice : DON’T.. DO NOT.. EVER.. EVER.. GIVE UP.

As a saying goes, When there’s a will, there’s a way. =)

But of course, if the feelings are no longer there.. What can both of you do right? So, letting go is probably the best act that you could’ve done. If it’s not meant to be, it’s not meant to be. No need to torture both of your feelings. Cause I know, God created each one of us for the special someone. So keep on looking! Close the chapter and move on!! ;)

My Super Hero.

I know this post is a day late but better late than never right? I am too caught up with college life lately.

So, yesterday it was my dad’s birthday. His GOLDEN years. The big FIVE-OH !! I am so happy for him. I know my mom and sis would do something for his big day.

First, I wished my dad on facebook. But then, I realized he didn’t even have a facebook but I tagged my sis and bro incase she open her account and show the wish to him =)

During Chem, I texted my dad. I was bored and sleepy. So, I wished him. He immediately replied about the kittens at the house. (Two of them were missing). Last year, he replied regarding the cats too. Seriously daddy, is there any other topics we can talk about BESIDES the cats *hint2 : the birthday man*. But it’s so cute when daddy talked about it. Especially when he’s too animated about handsome boy and macho boy. =)

Around noon, I called daddy. He called me back. We talked for a while. And then, as usual he will give the phone to mama. Mama told me she bought daddy Jubah. Well, daddy really needs another jubah. So, it’s a perfect gift overall. =)

 

I’ve decided to make a scrapbook for daddy. Though he might get it a wee bit late *cough2* during raya. But I wanna make it worth the wait. I want to make my own scrapbook. Everything from scratch. *wish me luck on that*

Daddy.. You are my batman, superman, iron man, aqua man, bartman, bird man, cicak man, keluang man, etc.. Overall you are THE MAN. The only man in my life that I will always love and cherish the most forever. You managed to raise us four, the demanding and uber dramatic children well. You always support us on whatever we do and for that, we are forever grateful having you as our daddy. =)

 

Oh. It’s already 2am. I need to take a quick shower then hit off the bed!! =)

 

Ps : Charm bracelet is ready whenever I’m ready. Problem is, I need the ka-ching from the big boss. ;)

Lavender Blonde

Well, last weekend.. Aiza came up with an abrupt plan : WORLD STAGE. She called me around 2 to ask whether I wanna go to WS with her or not. Just the three of us, The Chicoz. It was very random. We didn’t plan at all. UNfortunately, we couldn’t find two tickets for ourselves so, off to KL we go. Her dad booked a hotel room for us already. =)

After WS ended, Alia came to KL and slept with us. It was the first time that the 3 of us stayed in a hotel. Usually it’s always been me and Aiza. It was FUN FUN FUN!

We watched Salt @ Pavilion at 1.45 am. It was an OK movie. We LOLed when Jolie became a dude. She looked so funny!! I almost die of laughter in the cinema when the camera zoomed at her face when she was a dude. The movie was a serious movie, but somehow.. being with them made it a funny movie.

We slept prolly around 4 or 5. We lost track of time. Time flies so fast with them. We did lots of catching up. We slept on KING SIZE BED YAWW! Didn’t know it would fit the 3 of us considered that we have ‘grew’ and I sleep kind of ‘wild’. Hehehe..

Aiza heard something embarrassing while I was sleeping. I shan’t tell it here. :p

We had lunch at U-Cafe at Sg.Wang. Aiza’s boyfriend, Jazli was there too. It was fun. =)

Then Aiza sent me off to UIA then, Jazli.. And lastly, Alia.

It was nice being with my chicos. We’ve planned to have a day trip to Melaka or PD one day. One day.. And we will try to fit it into our tight, busy schedule. =)

I miss you chicos..

*I really like this picture!* =D