I don’t know how we’ve become like this. We used to be friends. Like, chat on facebook, texts, skype and such. I really appreciate our friendship since we know each other once you left CFS. I thought you’re different. You were nice to me. We used to joke and even tease each other. You didn’t take my jokes seriously and so was I. I thought you were my friend.
Honestly, I want you to know me since you were such a big hit in CFS. You were one of the hot seniors that I admired. Mainly because of your looks but it’s also because you’re a nice person. You treated us in your committee nicely. And I really like that.
After I added you on facebook, slowly we got to know each other. And I feel comfortable around you. I feel like you’re one of my friends already. We still keep in touch though you’ve left. And we got close. At least, that’s how I feel.
But just like how seasons changed. You and I also changed. Since you’re with her, you’ve slowly distanced yourself apart from me. I don’t know. Maybe it’s because one of the pranks that I’ve pulled on you that make us this way. But I thought you were cool with it. Honestly I thought you wouldn’t take it too seriously. But then again, it’s part of my fault too.
I really am sad when you acted as If I was invisible. You didn’t even say Hi to me. I smiled. But you acted as if you didn’t notice it. I don’t want to be the one saying Hi to you cause you only greeted my friend. I don’t want to feel as If I was left out. So I decided to just keep my mouth shut and keep my poker face on. But inside I really was torn cause you treated me this way.
You used to confronted me about your girl problem. But now since you got the girl, you cast me out. I really feel like I was used and treated like garbage. You throw our friendship just like that. At least, that’s how I see it.
Maybe you don’t even see me as one of your friends. But that’s okay. I guess I have to deal with it.
Ps: This is a very very old draft that I finally managed to finish. It took me a while to finish it cause it’s just too painful to write. But I have to find my inner peace back by letting go of the past.
So here’s to you..
Here’s to us..
Here’s to the past..
Here’s to the future.
