Dear Wednesday,

Do you have to act like that ?

Not even a smile ?

Not even a ‘Hai’ ?

Ok fine.

Be it.

 

My Baby

Around 4am, My baby got stuck in between the bed. As I was really super sleepy. I pulled it. Then, I heard this sound. Sound of fabric being torn. WAAAA..! Then only I gently pulled my baby. But, It was too late. My baby bled. It bled out white small cotton balls. I was super sad one I tell you. T_T

That morning, I couldn’t cuddle with my baby. I left it aside and hugged my bolster instead. =[

Thank God my roomie has thread and needle. So I performed unpracticed surgery to my baby. And now, my baby has stopped its bleeding. I can hug my baby now, tonight and forever!! :D

The Surgery :

I LOVE MY BABY !!

 

All of the sudden,

I miss home.

I miss my parents, especially my mom.

I miss my sisters and brother.

I miss the cats.

I miss the homey feeling.

I miss resting my head on mama’s lap.

I miss joke around with ayah.

I miss being an annoyance to adik.

I miss being vain with adik.

I miss tolong mama masak kat dapur.

I miss being in the kitchen.

I miss main badminton ngan ayah.

I miss feeding the cats.

I miss being at home.

Hai Tumblr!

I’ve tried to connect with you but I think the bandwidth here is not strong. Haihz.

This is so so frustrating !

I have lots of things to reblog, like and post! Haihz.

Tumblr. Tumblr. Tumblr.

So, I guess from now on, I’ll be more active in blogspot than in Tumblr.

I will be active once I’m back in Cyber or Brunei or anywhere that has fast connection.

 

I see you looking over my way,

I just wish that everyone would understand that us girls come in many shapes and sizes. Some might have big bottom or big busts. Some might have long legs or long hands. Some might be born with natural curves. Some might be born with no curves. Some might be pear shaped. Some might be apple shaped. Whatever it is, We are not born to have one kind of figure. If it is, the world is filled with boring people.

I’ve been trying so hard to cover up the certain areas that are more shown off than the rest. But, no matter how hard I’ve tried. That certain areas are still hard to be covered. I’ve tried to live with what I have. But some people don’t understand my body figure.

Sometimes, I feel like stripping in front of them and show them my figure. Show them which areas are smaller than the rest. I wanna tell them that I don’t have the same figure as them. Most of the girls that told me to cover up are the girls that naturally have small ‘parts’. This is what stressing me out. They don’t know what it’s like to have that big ‘parts’. If I could, I would lend them my ‘parts’ so they would understand the burden that I have to go through every single day. Every single day.

But I’m proud of them. And I wouldn’t trade a thing or two for them. Never. :)

 

Hello World !

Went out with Haza at Mid. Watched Paranormal Activity. Rate it 2/5. Okayy laaa.. Lots of suspense. LOTS. I like the part where Katie got dragged out of bed. That was awesome! Super cool!

Yada yada yada…

Met up with Diq around 4, I think.

Yada Yada Yada..

Went back by bus prolly around 8 reached UIA.

While in the bus, there’s this 2 girls that kept on giving us the bitchy look. I don’t know why. Perhaps it’s just them. But if they really have that face, I’m sorry for having this negative thoughts. But, I doubt it’s their natural looks. They gave us the MEGA bitch look. I don’t know why. Until now, I really don’t. Turned out, the guy sat next to me in the bus was her boyfriend. I didn’t flirt with him or whatsoever. So, I really don’t know why they gave us the bitchy look. I really don’t. I really don’t know why. And I don’t want to know. Just let it be.

Close your eyes

And I’ll kiss you

Tomorrow I’ll miss you

Remember I’ll always be true

She saw him from a distance. Turquoise. Perfect!!!. Her favorite color. It excites her.

Boy, you totally rocked that color out! :D

So, I barely know this guy. Actually, I don’t even care about his existence. I just don’t give a damn about him. But then, last night changes everything. His friends messed with me. They are very rude and just a total pain.

The thing that I really don’t like is, Why in the world would he and his friends intervene into my life where as I never ever intervene into theirs ?

Optimistic side kicking in : Perhaps they wanna be my friends but since they’re from the another side of planet where their elders didn’t teach them how to be friends with another gender, that’s why they’re being such a total pain in the ass. OR Maybe ‘cause I’m just too awesome that they can’t stand the awesome aura surrounded me and they want a piece of that too.

Well, I don’t care if you want my awesomeness. You can take it. I don’t give a damn. But then, DON’T mess with me. DON’T let me hate you. DON’T turn me into a bitch-zilla. DON’T let me harm you. Just DON’T.

If you really think you’re so cool and wanna angered this little girl. Well, I got good news for you, JOB WELL DONE. You’ve passed the test. You’ve made this little girl’s day more  miserable. I bet you’re really happy with what you’ve done

So, thank you for making my week more miserable than it already is. I can’t wait what you and your pityful godawful looking friends have for me.

Till then, this little girl is still waiting and let time cool her down.

Ps :  learning how to breathe and live.

I’d like to make myself believe that Planet Earth turns slowly

Anyway.. I think my new year’s resolution gonna change a bit.

I think I’m ready. I don’t know. Maybe I am. Or maybe it’s just the time of the month when I feel like it. Or maybe this fling thingy gonna change into something creepy or serious or whatever you would like to name it. Hahahaha!

Till then,

I’m confused.

 

I’ll never be the same

If we ever meet again.

I am completely smitten by you today.

You got me skipping down the street and singing love songs all out of keys.

Don’t you know my heart beat fast when you walked past or smiled at me ?

I think, I will be smitten by you again.

Hehehe.

Pressure.

People don’t know that I like A LOT of people. I can make a list of guys that I had crushes on but let me tell you, it’ll be COUNTLESS.

But it’s really a bitch of me if I totally make a move on someone’s boyfriend. And Thankfully, I’m not that type of girl. I don’t go for someone’s boyfriend. Unlike you, bitch.

So, stop spreading some rumor shit about me make a move on your boyfriend. We’re just friends for fuck’s sake. And I know your boyfriend longer than he knows you.

Oh, you might think why he didn’t go for me. Well, lemme tell you this : It’s because we’re too close to be a couple. I don’t wanna date him and neither does he. We both know that we’re better off as friends rather than something else. We’re like siblings!!

Haihzzzzz..

I just hope you will stop spreading some shit cause sooner or later, the shit will come back to you.

Trust me, Karma can be a total pain in the ass but you asked for it.

Ps : Thank you for ruining my 3 years friendship with your boyfriend. Have a pleasant 2010!

When boredom strikes.

 

The many faces of Afifah Noah when she has nothing else to do.

Hair.

I hate my hair. The fringe is cacat!

It’s like divided into two parts!

Help!

Bye Daddy.

So, I practically skipped my leadtrain just to be with daddy ! Hey, Daddy jarang turun KL okay?

Anyways, I will try my hardest to score for FIM next sem. They say, UIM needs a lot of reading. Some said, it’s easier than BTQ. I don’t know. I guess I’ll know it next sem.

Now, I’m regret cause I didn’t buy the cardigans at COTTON ON ! It’s okay. Maybe next week before FESTIVEN, I’ll go out and buy. I’ll ask daddy for some $$. Hehehe..

Daddy please ok ? I will buy that je..

Last night, we had dinner at Carla’s. MEXICAN FOOD. Taste DELISH!! Next time, I’ll eat Fajitas. Daddy ate it and it was good. I just took a bite cause I still have my pasta.

Went to NOSE but I couldn’t find the shoes that really attracts me. Ohh!! The salesgirl didn’t wear panty and her pants were really low that you can see the butt. Didn’t she feel the breeze when she bent ?? It was the most godawful view I’ve ever encounter. Euw Euw !

People are having their leadtrain while I’m here blogging. Hehe..

 

Sisters’ Night.

A very job well done I shall applaud to MRC ZC.

Although they were lots of problems in the beginning but you girls totally were so calm and professional doing all of it. Now that’s what we need !!! Professionalism ! :D

When Muni asked me to be an emcee, I answered without any thoughts. I was thinking that I need this new experience! She said, I can have a partner. But, to sum it up, it’s better to have one. That is me, to just be the ONLY Emcee. I was terrified of being the ONLY Emcee in this glam event. But I know that there will be less drama as I can control the whole thing. Kekekeke..

Some of the girls + madams thought that I was used to this emcee thingy before this event. Boy, they were shocked to know that it’s my first time!! LOL. I guess, loud mouth do bring benefits!! :D

I enjoyed being an emcee. I can just talk for hours and people can’t do anything about it but just to listen. Hahahaha!!

I am very honored to be part of this awesome night. Thank you Munirah.. :)

PS : I just realized, I haven’t removed my eyeliner. Malas laa

PPS : MATHS QUIZ.. =.=

Daddy.

So, Daddy will be arriving KL today! And, I think on Friday. I wanna see him. I HAVE TO. I will make daddy come here and fetch me after Friday prayers. =))

Daddy, I need new phone. The current phone is cacat already. Please daddykin..!!

I can’t wait to see DADDY!!! :)

Baddest Chicks.

I like the fact that I was smelly,sweaty and puffy red last night. Worked out with Haza was indeed FUN! :)

Need to do it more often.

I need to lose weight!!!

HAVE TO!!

I prolly need to buy basketball or netball.. Daddykin~~~~ ;p

2010.

Bye 2009, You’ve been an amazing year indeed. A whole mixture of new and old in me.

Now, 2010.

I think I HAVE to accomplish some things :

1. Be healthier and fitter.
2. Me-legal-kan my age with ALIA and few friends. :)
3. Get a DRIVING LICENSE.
4. SAVE at least $600.
5. Learn to be more friendly.
6. Learn to be more patience.
7. Learn from the past not to trust people easily.
8. Accept UIA as the way it is. HAIHZ. The hardest.
9. Try not to fall heels over head and then got heartbroken.
10. Get HIGH CGPA. > 3.00!!!!!

No.9 Sounds easy since ‘ I’m not ready’ – Nani.

=p

3rd Jan.

Hanani is a year older.

Happy Birthday Sis.