It annoys me how early I woke up when I have NO morning classes. *i.e, today*. I can’t blamed it.. I slept E.A.R.L.Y. last night. Even my roomie was surprised when I dozed off while doing Physics.
I think I’m letting this feeling go away. ‘Fe Mao’, now you’re off for good in my ‘little schoolgirl crush list’.
I was very sure this was just a temporary fling, and I was glad that it’s true. :)
Btw, where is my twinnie? I didn’t see her online on her msn for these few days. =[
I spend the awesomest weekend with my sexy aiza. :D
Whenever I’m with her, I know either one or both of us will try something new. This time around, I was the one that was being adventurous.
I tasted ‘kepah’. Her mom cooked masak lemak. DELICIOUS!! I also tried helping the mom in the kitchen, I peeled the pucuk ubi..! I drank JUS KEDONDONG with Asam. HOME MADE YAW. FRESH JUICE. PICKED FROM THE TREE. I cleaned the fruits and Aiza did juice :D
Aiza took me a walk around her house. Her mom plants a lot of trees around the house. I’m not a good tree identifier. Aiza had a grreat laugh while I tried my best to identify the trees. Especially the ‘Mangga/Manggis’ incident. :p
Oh oh she has turkey!!! 2 turkeys!!! At her granddad’s old house. They scared the creep out of me. But they’re sooo ‘healthy’ if you know what I mean..?? =p
Aiza told me she gonna slaughter the turkeys and made it as Subway’s TURKEY TOAST. Aiza.. save some for me!!
We also filled each other’s lives with, G.O.S.S.I.P.S.
So, We’ve created ‘Fe Mao’. I think I’m gonna change it. It sounds awful. I want something that’s cute and truly defines ‘FE MAO’.
I think I’m gonna decorate my place a bit neat-er.
Just got the 1st warning from Madam. Apparently, to her, our room is messy. We’re not messy.. We just have LOTS of stuff. You have a girl from Kedah, Penang and Brunei here. What’d you expect ??
So, last night, me and Yana swept the room and arrange our bags and all.
Here what we found out :
1. We have a lot of hair in the room. So, I told Yana it’d be better if we all shaved our heads.
2. There was a drink underneath a bed. *God knows how long it has been there. LOL
3. Dust Dust Dust. EVERYWHERE.
4. There was a mug. Under the bed.
5. A lot of rubber bands in the room.
Oh, the list can go on and on. But I’d rather stop now.
I HAVE CHEM QUIZ TO DIE FOR. THE FIRST QUIZ..
Wish me luck.
Just got off the phone with my lovely qibash.
Gosh, I miss her so much. I need to see her this week.
Got lots and lots of catching up to do. That’s for sure =)
And I do hope my llama can make it too!
I know she’s having hols and all. So, now the purrfect timing for us to finally get together and things will hopefully will be like good old times. In our own syok sendiriness world. :)
1 day down, Plenty more to go. Should I go for it after this few days ??
The truth is, I’ve been feeling emo this week.
I just hope next week will be the totally opposite week for me.
I think I’m still not over it. It’s just hard to just let it go. Especially when it keeps on coming back and you’re just there to face it and can’t do anything about it. This bugs me the most. I can’t do anything about it but to just watch it pass me by and pretended as if everything is perfectly normal.
I don’t know how long I have to keep on being like this.
It..Hurts..So..Badly..
Ps : Or maybe it wasn’t about IT at all..!! Maybe it’s just my bloody hormone ‘finally’ trying to get right.
I miss the sound of your voice
And I miss the rush of your skin
And I miss the still of the silence
As you breathe out and I breathe in
If I could walk on water
If I could tell you what's next
I'd make you believe
I'd make you forget
So come on, get higher, loosen my lips
Faith and desire and the swing of your hips
Just pull me down hard
And drown me in love
So come on, get higher, loosen my lips
Faith and desire and the swing of your hips
Just pull me down hard
And drown me in love
I miss the sound of your voice
Loudest thing in my head
And I ache to remember
All the violent, sweet
Perfect words that you said
If I could walk on water
If I could tell you what's next
I'd make you believe
I'd make you forget
So come on, get higher, loosen my lips
Faith and desire and the swing of your hips
Just pull me down hard
And drown me in love
So come on, get higher, loosen my lips
Faith and desire and the swing of your hips
Just pull me down hard
And drown me in love
I feel of your heart
I taste the sparks on your tongue
I see angels and devils
And God, when you come on
Hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on
Sing sha la la la
Sing sha la la la la
So come on, get higher, loosen my lips
Faith and desire and the swing of your hips
Just pull me down hard
And drown me in love
So come on, get higher, loosen my lips
Faith and desire and the swing of your hips
Just pull me down hard
And drown me, drown me in love
It's all wrong, it's all wrong
It's all wrong, it's so right
So come on, get higher
So come on and get higher
'Cause everything works, love
Everything works when you're on
I swear, I’ll melt and totally will love whoever sings me this song.
I ain’t gonna lie. I’m a bit heart broken. Yes, I might look all mighty fine and content. But that’s just the outside. Inside, I’m torn bits by bits. There’s nothing I can do but just to pretend that I’m enjoying the ride of a lifetime. It’s sickening me. I don’t know how long I can stand being like this.
I know part of me would be very sad and I might break down and cry. There’s also a part of me would be very happy and wish it the best of luck.
I just don’t know how to face it. I have a grrreat instinct that *thethingwhichIcan’treallydescribe* will sort of come true. I can see it.
When the day come, will I be ready to accept it ?
I know I have to.
I wanna know what’s on your mind.
I might be feeling perasan now but at least can you please be honest with me?
I need some sign. Good or bad, I don’t mind. But A sign. That’s all I need. That’s all I’m wishing for.
We can carry on like this or we can just be frank to each other and things will still be the same.. or not.
I’m ready.. are you?
I pretty much hope it’d come true. *fingers crossed*
Now, I’m not sure whether it’s a sign or just a plain joke we always kid around. You see, this is what bugs me off the most. THIS.
I am very irritated by the bloody fucking ‘goody-two-fucking-shoes’ in this hypocrisy idiocy place.
Spare me a fucking life.PLEASE.
What did I do wrong to you? Do I even interfere into your ‘oh-so-glamicious’ life? I don’t even bother to get to know you and who the hell are you to interfere in my life and telling me what’s wrong and what’s right as If I’m a six year old kid that you can order to?
I don’t know how they can live in a world full of phoneys and lies. I can’t imagine starting a new day with the same old tactics and another lie. Aren’t they sick and tired of it or they just simply love being hypocrites?
It’s as if they’ve never been in a mixed gender environment. Like, HELLOO..ARE YOU FROM EARTH OR FROM PLANET LOSER?? Or the harsh sentence I can think of is, ‘Do you even have a mother or female relatives in your bloody family or you’re just plain gay?’
God, spare me a life. I need to be myself once in a while. I need to live like an ordinary person. I need to let loose once in a while.
Squeeze me, but I wasn’t born in a single sex planet. I was born on planet EARTH. Where there are actually dicks and boobs swarming around. Squeeze my french. But I just need to clear the air.
And to that bloody whatdoyoucallit? Ohh.. FSCC *fuckingsexistcuntcreature* ; FUCK YOU. I DON’T GIVE A FUCK ABOUT YOUR BLOODY ‘SO-CALLED’ HARSH WARNING. GO AND SUCK BALLS. GO SUCK THAT SICKLY DICK OF YOURS AND GET A LIFE.
Saya rindu Chicoz!
Iman Alia Anuar dan Aiza Alias!
Saya rindu kamuuu..
Alia, cepat laaa abis final tuu.. Pastu kte jln2 k? and yes, msti ngan Aiza gak!! OU, PAVI.. anywhere.. Just tell me. :D
And we’ll have our taxi adventure again!!
Alia ; I’m sorry about that ‘MERSING’ thingy. That old man didn’t tell me earlier that it was cancelled. LAST MINUTE SOME MORE!! Supposedly, my brother picked me up @ night. So I thought if it’s cancelled, we can meet up at OU or somewhere and watch MJ. Then, I go back at night. But.. My sis picked me up @ noon. Around 1 to be exact. I thought you’ll be fine with it since you were gonna watch it your fam. Once again, I’m sorry !! And I won’t get over it no matter how many times you told me to. I just can’t. And Again, I’m sorry !!!
Aiza ; Thank you for coming to my not so glamorous apartment. Sorry that it was damn messy and about my brother’s incident tuu..well, let’s just not talk about it anymore k? Hehe.. I’m sorry for my brother’s ‘oh so humiliating’ behavior that day. He was being, well, his usual pigself. Especially in front of others. I swear, next time around, he won’t be in the apartment. I can assure you that. :D
To two of my loveliest creature in the entire world ;
I don’t know how my life would be If both of you are not with me. X ksah laa we always meet up or not, but I’m very blessed that though we’re not in same college, we managed to find free time and keep in touch. And for that, I’m truly grateful to have both of you in my life.. You both really know how to cheer me up when I’m down. When I’m mad, I know both of you will be there for me and listen to me nag and nag and scream and curse like a mother bitch. Better yet, we all get along so well that we often got carried away with our syok sendiriness that many people outside our circle don’t get us..sometimes..well, all the time.. actually!! Hehe.. No matter what, I know that you both got my back. And in favor, my back is on you guys.. =)
I miss being the old Afifah Noah.
The young,wild,naive and carefree Afifah Noah.
The Afifah Noah where my friends in KTJ and SMSSA knew.
Not ‘this’ kind of Afifah Noah.
The boring,depressed,sad and pathetic Afifah Noah.
I thought I would be able to adapt to this place since I’ve been here for almost 2 sem. But then again, it’s a wishful thinking. Being in this place is utterly opposite than KTJ nor SMSSA.
Here, ALL of the people are malay. I miss having Chinese,Indians, Koreans and other races walking around in campus. I miss having other cultures and religions crammed in one place. I miss screaming,shouting and laughing like it’s nobody’s business. I miss sitting next to opposite gender in the class and we don’t give a fuck about it. I miss having a good laugh with my best mates. I miss the time where people won’t be there to complain your clothing.
I miss it all.
Chemistry – thinking of Specy
Arab – thinking of how my weekend gonna be
Yess… Afifah is staying in CFS this week. Wish me the best of luck.
It’s gonna be a loooooooong weekend.
I like Diq’s new watch!! It’s freaking sexy just like the owner. haha!!
Okaaay, I soo can’t get over this one dude. I should stop blabber about him.. Naughty2 Ppah~
Oh Oh.. Met ILHAM !! That one naughty little devil.. Tsk Tsk Tsk.. My next victim, I suppose!?? Hehehe.. ;p
So, Mr.Saturday and Sunday. How Shall we spend our days ??
Do you know that I’m thinking of you?
Friday :
1. Ate at Garden’s. *Deliciousss…*
2. Played @ the arcade. Street basketball gave me muscle ache. *Been a while didn’t exercise. That’s why!!!*
Highlight of Friday :
Watched ‘MICHAEL JACKSON : THIS IS IT’ with Nani and Rad, the late night show. It was worth it!! Felt like watching his concert. =’[
Saturday :
1. Cooked lunch with Nani.
2. Went to BUKIT JALIL for AAR’s CONCERT! Followed Nani and Rad then met Sarah, Dila, Hazim and Fariz =)
TYSON RITTER DRESSED UP AS A NATIVE AMERICAN. SEXY BEAST! * Tyson : ‘You’re the sexiest crowd’* drools.
Sunday :
Watched Road Trip Beer Pong.
Swore to myself to go internet-less for 3 days*Thursday : 00.00 hr*
Went to basketball court to see INTECH and ENGENIUS trained for SMAC
I need to download more movies.
