One down.

Yesterday was BM paper. I gotta say, I was drop dead clueless on how to start an essay. But I think I did pretty good. Minus the bad handwriting. My teacher told me to be confident on your answers. And hell yeah I did well! (Too Confident) Nyehehehe..

anyway anyhow anywho .. I’m very relieved that I have one paper left and that is of course .. Dynamics. The paper to Die for.

That’s why I’m taking a break for a night from dienamics from starting a fresh start tomorrow. =]

Weee.. Can’t wait for holidays! (counting down the days)

Whatever.

You don’t know how deeply hurt I was. You gave me hope. Those damn bloody goddamn high hopes of what could happen to us. And over a night, you crush it right on my face. I was doing perfectly fine those past few weeks. I had enough strength to see you as a friend. But you treated me nicely over this past few days and well, you smitten me. Stupid.. Stupid of me to think of that. But after that incident, you have really gone too far. I can’t accept your action. I really can’t. That was too much for me. You broke all the promises you made. I’m getting tired of all of your Sorrys. Those bloody countless of Sorry you have uttered and wrote are really worthless to me. It ticks me, You’re just a guy who are full of words. I don’t think I can forgive you now. I’m sorry. But I just can’t accept any of your apologies. I don’t care If you said “Sorry” to me for hours. I know I can’t. You’ve managed to make me cry which is very rare for guys to do that. Kuddos! You’re the 2nd non-related guys in my life who’ve managed to make me cry like a freak. and for that, I have to say goodbye to you.

Eiks!

Exam is just around the corner and I’m not prepared. Not at all! I’m really scared. It’s like whatever I learn is not absorbing to my brain. I think I need to study at somewhere peaceful. No pressure. Where I can really focus.

Ya Allah.. Help me.

Just Because ..

I’m too bloody dissatisfied over my Mid Term. But the past is the past. But STILL.. I strongly feel that the marking scheme is unfair. It’s not practical at all. Hmph..

Therefore, I’m gonna play game and start a new leaf w/ strong determination to get back of my Mid Term for the Final.

I can do this yes I can!

-xx

 

Ps : I already miss Melbourne. ;(

If you think I’m coming back,

DON’T HOLD YOUR BREATH!! – Nicole Scherzinger

Lately I’ve been very lazy to study. Tsk Tsk Tsk.. I feel very bad. I know it’s not good for me since I won’t be in class for a week. But it’s just that I feel very down lately. Especially after Dynamics Mid-Term. I gave it all to Dynamics but in the end, I still couldn’t answer it. I know If a religious person read this he will say “It’s fate” but then, I still feel it’s unfair.

Usually I feel relieved whenever I went out from examination room. But this time, I feel so down and honestly, I feel like crying. I feel stupid. I feel very stupid and frustrated with myself. I really don’t know what went wrong. I did everything in the book. I really spent those previous days to study but I still couldn’t answer it. And what frustrates me is the fact it was an mcq! I was very nervous and terrified all at once when I finalized the answer but then, my answer wasn’t in the given options. I was very sad. It made me think, what went wrong. Honestly, my confidence went down the drain once I realized it was a wrong answer. But then, it’s better knowing it was a wrong answer. But yeahh.. I still feel down. Idk. My emotion is not stable tonight.

So I think starting from today, I have to discipline myself and study like hell. I have to. I need to. I have to think of my future. From now on.

Cause the future is all about me. I have to accomplish my dreams. I have to live my dreams.

-xx

Fix us.

Is it my fault that we’ve distanced apart? Can you at least tell me If I’ve done something wrong. Just please. Be frank with me. I don’t want our friendship to be ruined because of one little thing. I miss us.

It’s time to say goodbye to Turning Tables.

This is my confession : I’m obsessed with JONATHAN GROFF!

Yes, the guy on Glee who better be known as ‘JESSIE ST. JAMES’. I love his voice. It’s super duper powerful.

But why oh why are you gay? :(

  

Aaaahh.. You so sexyyy!!!