Wednesday.

Can’t believe that next week it’ll be mid sem already. It feels so soon and I’m so not prepared. Especially maths! I’m scared of my differentiation thingy. Limits , well , not so. But I am scared shitless nevertheless. And I ain’t shitting here. I am not prepared to do the differentiation. Besides, being in the class full of smart asses doesn’t help at all. I feel like the dumbest girl there. Especially when they all can do it in a ZAP while I’m still thinking and thinking..and flipping through the previous exercise that madam gave us. Haihz..

I need to practice more. I think this week I will be a boring nerd and just stay in room..doing calculus. LMAO. But , I need this. I need to be a nerd. Especially since I only have 1 core and language subject. If I don’t do well , it’s like a waste. I shouldn’t be doing short sem at all..! So I need to upgrade my cgpa. I need to. I HAVE TO !!

I’m putting myself on pressure. I’m setting my bar waaaay up high but that’s what I need. To keep my focus straight : CGPA 3.0 AND ABOVE! I used to dream of having my CGPA 3.5 , but I know I can’t achieve it. So I downgraded it to 3.0

Well , that’s all I’m gonna write.

I need to do my arab.

Till then ,

Rice.

Ok.. So I think this week I’m gonna start my rice-less. I’m gonna eat bread and noodles. Well , few noodles but most of it will be bread. And If I eat lunch , I’m gonna eat LESS rice and MORE veggies. I have to !! I think I’ve gained weight. I can feel it..

I can’t completely give up on rice. Like NO RICE. Ever. NO ! I need rice , after all , I’m asian. Rice and Asians are inseparable ! But all I change is my consumption of it. :)

Dinner will be the tough one , since the cafe provided fried rice , fried noodles. All those fried stuff. Maybe I can skip dinner at cafe and eat bread instead. Besides , I can save my money !! Hahaha !

*I hope this one week will be a good diet week for me. And if it’s working , maybe I can go on till like , FOREVER. Lol.. Well , maybe 2 weeks or a month. =p

Epic Failness !

So , I went out with my Janet to Sunway. We had a really tough time deciding where to go. It was great to see Alia. I feel better cause :

1. I’m out of UIA.

2. Meeting her.

I miss her so much. It has been a long time since we didn’t see each other. I think about 3-4 months. It’s hard to meet her. She has her thing on and I have mine. And our holidays are not same!!

ANYWAY , We updated each other. Well , not really laa since we text and chat all the time.

We walked in Sunway for so many times that I think by now , I know every shop at the tip of my tongue! We kept on walking and talking non-stop. But of course in the end , we were so tired. We drank at JUICE WORKS!! I love the juices there. So refreshing and definitely quench my thirst. LOL.

We played ARCHERY !! Both first timers wei..! So it was very funny.. I had trouble on putting the arrow at the right position. And it was very fun !! Neither of us hit the bulls eye!! LOL. Felt like Xena and Gabrielle. ;p

The trainer told us to pull the bow more tapi..sakit ! but it’s easy once you get a hang of it. We were only halfway with our archery but both of us dah sakit tangan !! X biasa! LOL.

I think archery will be one of my fav thing other than bowling though I suck at it. ;p

We had 2 mini epic failness at the cinema. Wanted to watch movie , but then we both didn’t know what movie to watch since some of the movies are boring. I wanted to watch Daybreakers but Alia is not into that kind of movie , so I don’t feel like watching it too. So , we both went twice and still , x tgk any movie. Last2 , main kat arcade jee. I played the percussion master. And I got D , C and D. LOL. I know I know. I suck. ;p

It was great seeing Alia. I didn’t get the chance to see Aiza but I got to see her. It was good =)

Mr.Cicak

I have a lizard in my room. That is so disgusting and scary. My roomie , Azyan saw it. She saw it at her area. I was watching HIMYM that time. She screamed. I was shocked. Then she told me we have a lizard in a room. I was scared shitless. I didn’t know what to do. So Azyan went downstairs to get salt. That time , I wished I had a Lizard Repellent. LOL.

After I exercised with my friends , I went back to the room and there it was, Mr.Cicak.. On top of Azyan’s closet. It was on the wall. Euw Euw Euw.. I just hope that the lizard has go out and go to the other room. As long as it’s not IN MY room. I don’t want it in MY room. No.

Now , I don’t know how I’m gonna sleep cause I’m scared that when I woke up , It’'ll be next on my bed. Blinking at me with its tongue out. EUW EUW. Just the thought of it gave me chill and Goosebumps. I can’t imagine how it’d be if it really really happen to me. +_+

I’m sorry for being such a bitch in the text. I guess that’s how money-minded people are nowadays. And I guess I’m turning into one. This is crazy. Having a fight with you in a text about this.

I was being selfish. I want things my way and when I need something , I want it now. And I need to change that. I’m sorry.

I didn’t realize how hard it is for ayah and mama to go to work. To find money.. to support us. I know it’s hard but I just never had a really deep thought of it.

I know I’m supposed to support abang. I know I have to know from his side of the story. But I guess I was impatience and mad at him. I didn’t know anything about car or what he’d done to it. I was mad at him because of him I got that text. I blamed him half of it and maybe the other half on the car. That car is old and it’s a secondhand. What’d you expect from it right ?

Well , All I just want to say is that I’m sorry for the thing I’ve wrote. As you said , it’s all Miscommunication.

So I’m not going back to Cyber this weekend. I am surprised that I made this decision. I don’t know how I’ll be spending my weekend in UIA. –_-

I don’t want to go back every week. I’ll tire my sis out. I know it’s her 4th year and she has lots of things to do especially with the posting and clinical thingy.

And about my brother.. Well , I don’t really ask for his help. Yea , he’s cool but he’s short tempered and he would came out with excuses. but I know in the end he would pick me up.

This is the part where I wish I could drive and have a car. I can’t wait to drive. I know I keep of wanting to drive. But I just don’t have the chance to enter the school.

My dad wants me to do in Malaysia. But I wanted to do in Brunei. It’ll be easy. I know it would. I just need more practice. The thing is , my parents always wants me to drive early morning like around 7-8 am. At that time , I’m still sleeping! Cause I slept around 2-3 am top! At home. Later than that , I’ll have flu or fever. That’s my limit.

Till then ,

 

I have a low antibody.

Every week I will have flu. A terrible flu. The one where I can’t focus in class and ends up wasting my 2 hours class of nothing. My notes will be filled with words and numbers but then , I didn’t really pay any attention AT ALL. This thing happened today.

I was sneezing and all that shit. I felt so sick. I just wanted to go back to my room and cuddled with my caterpillar on my bed and just dozed off until the next day.

The thing is , if I slept in the noon , I will become a bat at night. I will stay up late. It’ll be a cycle. Now , I have dark circles. I feel so ugly right now. I need more sleep , vitamin C and water. LOTS and LOTS of them. :)

Dah lama kita x jumpa kan ?

Dah lama kita x say ‘hai’ to each other dan senyum.

Dah lama kita x chat online.

Dah lama kita x sms.

Dah lama I x jumpa you.

Sekarang ni jarang laa jumpa. Venue u lain , I pon sma. So , nak bertembung pun susah.

*If Only you knew and felt it too*

Yesterday , before my sis sent me back to UIA, we had lunch at BK. *Cause I was craving to eat burgers especially those big , fat , juicy burgers*. So my sis drove to Alamanda.

After the fulfilling lunch , my sis wanted to buy ant killer since in the house there are LOTS of ants crawling around the house. Their favorite spot , as expected , around the garbage. It’s so disgusting. We can’t do anything about it. There lots of ants since the people in the upper level keep on throwing their rubbish down. Which then , will be accumulated at our level. The 2nd floor. That is so disgusting. Not only there will be lots of ants but also maggots and what’s not. It’s just so so disgusting. And the management didn’t do anything about it. They said that the cleaners will spray water to let the water fall down to the ground. But then , it’s only an empty promises *As usual*. The worst part is not only they throw their left overs and ciggies, BUT there is also CONDOMS. I saw few of them. The thought of condom is horrid and the view of it is just godawful! It makes me wanna puke.

Anyway..Back to the story of Alamanda.. She couldn’t find ant killers at Cold Storage, Then she suggested to Carrefour in hope that there will be ant killers. I told her I wanna go to CIMB to withdraw my cash out.

Ok, now this is the real reason why I wanna blog about my adventure in Alamanda. My atm card got ‘telan’ by the machine. Well, or so I thought. But then , the machine was just being an asshole to me. I started to panic. I didn’t know what to do. *First time this ever happened to me*. So , I called my sis. There was this one guy stood behind me. I told him what happened cause I wanted him to use the different ATM machines while I’m in the middle of this crisis. And his reaction was : “Do I care?” with his bitchy face.

OMG. Bitch much!! Inside I was flaming in fury. I just wanted to chop his head off and feed it to the dogs. I swear I wish I could.

This is not the first annoying incident happened to me. There were lots of fucked up incidents in alamanda. That’s why I don’t like Alamanda. There are lots of malays and uncivilized that is.

And in weekend , there are lots of KIDS. LOTS of them. I’m suffocating in Alamanda just by the view of KIDS running around and making noises. I hate when there are bunch of KIDS running around.

KIDS + ANNOYING OLD PEOPLE WHO ARE IMMATURE = ALAMANDA.

Urghh…

Well hello there bloggie. You’ve been ‘dead’ for few weeks. Sorry I’ve neglected you. Been lazy to update anything during the hols.

So, I’ve fixed the wifi prob. Finally can access to internet. Yay!!

And so, Sem 3 has started.

I really need to strive for Excellence in Maths 3 , SEF 1134.

I can do this. YES I can !!

I can score A solid. I BELIEVE. I hope. And I pray.

But the people in my class are such brainiacs. They’re like so active and always ask question to madam. *Well , maybe cause it’s the first class and the first topic*. But still , each time madam stopped talking , there will always be a person who will asked madam questions. I’m freaking scared.

I need to study hard. YES I MUST.

I need to do more exercises. YES I SHOULD.

But first , I need the book. Lol

I think I’ve lost my mood in blogging. So now , gonna watch HIMYM.

Till then ,

Sheep.

Blogger and Tumblr.

 

For me , tumblr is more public. So , I post all quotes , pictures , audios that I found interesting.

Blogger on the other hand is more private and personal to me. So , If I feel like I want to rant , I’ll rant here. :)

MOVE ON.

The truth is loud and clear.

The message you’ve sent to me are clear.

I should have just MOVE ON

 

The Feeling

Maybe I’m not so over you.

Maybe there’s a slight feeling.

Shit. This has got to stop.

Why can’t I get over you just yet ?

I got my mojo back in like an hour. Haha!

 

People said it’s good being friendly. But I think that being friendly has it’s cons.

I always got this ‘rumors’ flying around me just because I got close to a friend of mine who is apparently of an opposite sex. Is it wrong to have a best friend that is of opposite sex ?

I know that in ‘When Harry Met Sally’ , Harry said “Men and Women can never be best friends because there are always sex in between,”.

Well , I don’t agreed with that. I have lots of guy friends and we never have that ‘love’ blossom between us except friendship. I love my best friends. Yes , I do. But I love him as my brother. NOT my lover.

So I really don’t get it why people always have this assumption in their minds that when a guy and a girl get close is because either one of them have feelings for one another or because they are an couple. I mean , DUDE. This is the 21st century!! It’s not wrong for having a best friend of opposite sex!!

And sometimes guys often misinterpret of my friendliness. Do I need to tell you that I’m being friendly ?? Do I need to say that before we have a conversation that all this conversation is just a matter of friendship and not because I’m flirting or have any sort of feelings towards you ? Dude.. Get a life.

If it’s not the guy , there will always be the guy’s friends. They will spread the rumors that I have a crush on that guy and that’s why I’m all friendly and shit. Which is in my opinion , a total BS.

I’m seriously allergic to these kind of people.  Grow up and be matured!

These kind of people are suffocating my space and my breathe.

I can’t help myself for being friendly. It just comes naturally in me and as what the saying goes : Old habit dies hard.

I rather be friendly than being a total loner and an outcast.

Where the heck is my mojo ?

This sucks balls. I have lost my mojo in blogging.

Oh well bloggie.

Till then.

Music in my ears.

I don’t know why but now my winamp is playing all the ballad love songs. This is quite good though since all this week I’ve been listening to Gaga. This time , I think I need to be all RnB-ish back.

Hmm.. Where does all my rock days have gone ?? I still remember me , listening to nothing but all those screamo and alternative songs. I do listen to them sometimes. Depends on my mood. When I feel like lashing at someone but I couldn’t , I release my anger by listening to those songs. But most of the time , I am too happy to even listen to those songs. I have all those ‘bitching’ sessions with my girls which is 1000x better than being all emo with my headphone. :)

I still have my collections of screamo , metal and so on in my playlist. I will always keep them in my playlist though I rarely hear them. Who knows , I might need them someday. ;)

And I’m not embarrassed to say that I have Jonas Brothers in my playlist. Yes , I was once a JB fan. Got a prob with them ? I adore Nick. I don’t care what you all say about me. I was a JB fan and I’m proud ! Well , let’s just say I was one of those school girls too  ;p

I miss the music sharing session with S. She really exposed me to some of the bands that I didn’t know and I’ll checked them either on myspace or youtube and once I’m hooked with one of their songs , I will download the whole bunch of them !! I really miss that music sharing since S and I have the same taste in music. Heyy.. We’re twinnie after all. What to do maahh..??  =p

And currently I have 3616 songs in winamp. Damn.. That’s a lot. It takes about 15.5 gb !!! Hahaha! I think tomorrow I will go another music hunt. I need to fill this baby with new music and new bands. Time for me to become one of those promoters in my blog and facebook on new songs that I discovered. Hahaha !!

Well , FAREWELL FIGHTERS added me on tumblr. Apparently it’s a band. Their songs are awesome. Definitely the kind that I want to listen to whatever my mood is. It’s really catchy. Kinda remind me of ‘Motion City Soundtrack’. :)

Now the playlist is currently on RAYGUN – WAITING IN LINE. I’ve been searching for this song for a long long time. Unfortunately 4shared doesn’t have this band. Ohh.. Also Tokio Hotel. It’s very hard to find TOKIO HOTEL and RAYGUN on any of the download websites. This one , I got lucky ! I typed it on google search and I think it was on mediashare or something. I was VERY VERY excited once the download was finished. Raygun is such a cool band. I don’t know why they’re not popular. They should be ! Just like TOKIO HOTEL. Both bands are very very talented. I would go to Raygun and Tokio Hotel’s concert if they have it in Malaysia. I know my daughter , babysa would LOVE to go to TOKIO HOTEL. Hahaha ! My daughter is such a tokio hotel’s fanatic. She even learned Germany !!! How cool is that ? :D

Sunshine and Rainbows.

So, It’s 1am and I can’t sleep. I really can’t. So I think maybe blogging will help. ;)

I am perfectly happy with my life.

I am single.

I am on holiday.

I am back at home.

I have no worries or whatsoever now.

I am back to crush-less. I’m tired of having the idea of liking that someone but that someone doesn’t know and in the end , I’ll end up making a fool out of myself or having my hopes up when that someone started to treat you back the same way you did but nothing work out. You dig ?

So now I’m not gonna go all crushy mushy.

I’m just sick and tired of having this feeling.

I just want to be perfectly content with my friends and family.