I lied to my friends when I say I could easily forget you. I thought when I don’t talk about you to them, it’ll make the feelings fade away easier. But I was wrong. Truth is, the more I try to avoid you.. That’s the time when you’re slowly creeping back to my life. You’ll be the first one to start everything back. The text, the call.. Those things. You always do that stuff. That things are the ones that make me always come back for you. I don’t know how you do it. But it’s like you got the feeling that I’m slowly drifting away from you and you pull me back so I’ll stay in this state. The middle-of-nowhere state. Honestly, I was a bit jealous when I saw your page was filled with her name. We’re not even together but here I am jealous over nothing. Last time, you told me there was nothing going on between the two of you anymore. It was such a relief to hear those words from you directly. But, now.. I don’t know If I really believed it. They say it’s good that I feel the jealousy creeping in because it shows how much you mean to me. But I don’t like it. I feel like I’m a scary envious monster when it comes to you.
I told myself that this is just a fling. It’ll last for couple of weeks then I’ll jump on to another victims. But I don’t know what’s so special about you that makes me like you even more when we got closer. I’m scared that we’ll get too comfortable on the friend zone that you’ll just see me as ‘one of your buddy’. Not the way that I want it to be. But.. If it’s fate, I can’t fight it right?
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