If you think I’m coming back,

DON’T HOLD YOUR BREATH!! – Nicole Scherzinger

Lately I’ve been very lazy to study. Tsk Tsk Tsk.. I feel very bad. I know it’s not good for me since I won’t be in class for a week. But it’s just that I feel very down lately. Especially after Dynamics Mid-Term. I gave it all to Dynamics but in the end, I still couldn’t answer it. I know If a religious person read this he will say “It’s fate” but then, I still feel it’s unfair.

Usually I feel relieved whenever I went out from examination room. But this time, I feel so down and honestly, I feel like crying. I feel stupid. I feel very stupid and frustrated with myself. I really don’t know what went wrong. I did everything in the book. I really spent those previous days to study but I still couldn’t answer it. And what frustrates me is the fact it was an mcq! I was very nervous and terrified all at once when I finalized the answer but then, my answer wasn’t in the given options. I was very sad. It made me think, what went wrong. Honestly, my confidence went down the drain once I realized it was a wrong answer. But then, it’s better knowing it was a wrong answer. But yeahh.. I still feel down. Idk. My emotion is not stable tonight.

So I think starting from today, I have to discipline myself and study like hell. I have to. I need to. I have to think of my future. From now on.

Cause the future is all about me. I have to accomplish my dreams. I have to live my dreams.

-xx